Scared and in denial, not sure where to turn

I've had very heavy bleeding for 6 mths now, Dr tried the pill, then another suspected an infection but neither treatments helped and my tummy pain and general health were so poor I ended up going to a and e. First test showed high lactate, I thought I'd just be sent home but thanks to a thorough on call emergency Dr everything seemed to be taken more seriously than I expected. They did a ct scan with a dye which showed a thick womb lining, some kind of masses and excessive free fluid. I was admitted which again, I was surprised and expected to be sent home. I was given lots of blood tests and fluid through the night and saw a very serious gyne Dr who said she didn't want to negative but this was serious. The next day I was given an internal scan and told that what they had seen was worse than they expected. One side of the womb was thicker than the other with some calcified mass and ++ free fluid. They expected the amount of fluid and wall to be less given the very heavy blood loss but it wasn't. I had a biopsy  taken later that day and again they said what they found was a lot'more' than expected and she asked for it to be sent as an 'emergency' biopsy. I was too scared to ask if she thought it was cancer but her face said a million things. They arranged for me to be seen the next day. The receptionist said about a hysterectomy and discussing my results. (A hysterectomy hadn't been discussed with me!) Unfortunately my gyne was off sick and the appointment was cancelled. I was supposed to hear from them today but didn't so hoping I'll have some news tomorrow. Will they discuss cancer results over the phone?! Am I being dramatic and overthinking?! I feel like I've been told without being told and my head is all over the place. Part of me knows it is and another part of me thinks I'm being silly. I'm in denial and terrified all at once!  I'm also struggling so much as I've been ill for so long and off work. Ironically my partner has too and she's waiting for a mri of a mass they have found in her head. We've both worked our whole lives and literally don't have any money to live on. Really really feeling g stuck and drowning ATM. 

  • Hello Rainie

    I'm so sorry to hear about all that you've been dealing with over the past few months and that you now find yourself waiting for results. We know that for many people this period of waiting and uncertainty can be difficult and it's understandable that you may be feeling overwhelmed by things. 

    Have you heard from the hospital since making this post? If you were expecting contact and haven't heard from them then do contact the hospital PALS team. It's part of their role to help resolve concerns when using the NHS. 

    Hopefully, you'll have some news soon but if you'd like to talk things through with one of our nurses you're welcome to call them on 0808 800 4040, Monday to Friday 9am to 5pm. I know they will be happy to listen and offer any advice, information, and support they can. 

    Do keep in touch rainie and let us know how you, and your partner, both get on. 

    Best wishes, 
    Jenn
    Cancer Chat moderator