I think I’m panicking more because of my children I have 8 and they all have disabilities and they only have me x specially the youngest 5 x life is hard enough for us as it is without throwing the big c in on top xx 

where are you in your journey now hun?

I am so sorry to hear about your situation. I really hope it's all clear for you, but if it isn't please make sure you accept every offer of help. You deserve it. 

So far I have had my initial hospital appointment, were I had an examination, a mammogram, an ultrasound, a biopsy and a final mammogram. It was a busy morning. My next appointment is next Friday for results and options/plan. It's all happening quickly but the wait in between seems endless. It's not that I want it to come round too quickly but it's the lack of control that pulls you down. I also think that this may prove to be my best time when I am still relatively in the dark and know nothing for certain. Once you know you can't unknow, and you have to live with whatever it is. Then again, the thought of this alien growth inside me, turns my stomach. I wish I could just scoop it out

I agree totally hun x I’m not a patient person anyway and it’s like being pregnant in a way because you have no control over anything once the ball is rolling and that’s something I have always struggled with x from everything I have seen on here so far there is a lot of waiting isn’t there xx really hope Friday comes fast for you and your results aren’t as bad as you are imagining xx

Do the tests hurt?? I’m so scared of the unknown x

I was always told that a mammogram hurts, but I can honestly say it doesn't at all. You have to stand in a strange position, but there is no pain. I think if you are a bit stiff and on edge, there could be some discomfort but honesty that is nothing to worry about. 

The biopsy I thought would be painful and expected it to be but it really isn't. You will feel a sharp scratch for a split second, and then the slightest discomfort but definitely not painful. Even when they are digging around it doesn't hurt. 

Have you got someone to look after the kids because you really can't take them with you? More to the point do you know when your first appointment is yet?

Sorry for the delay answering. I got there at 9am ad was finished by 11.15am. They tell you to allow for 4 hours and every hospital is different I'm sure. Asking social services is a very good idea . You don't need to be worrying about the time on top of everything. Definitely give the hospital a ring. The day I saw my doctor, was the day I got my first appointment at the hospital. Are any of the kids old enough for you to tell them what's happening?

My oldest 2 daughters know but are being optimistic and not really taking it all seriously tbh, they both have adhd so I know if they take it seriously they will be a mess so I’m leaving it as it is for now so they don’t panic x my eldest my son doesn’t know yet. I only told the girls because I needed the one to babysit for me to go to gp. I totally just lost my temper with my youngest 3 at bedtime and screamed at them then burst into tears. So now I’m sat in the top of the stairs crying and feeling *** for shouting. Life really sucks sometimes xx

Kids soon forget those things, so don't worry about it. When you know more about what is going on, it may be worth you contacting their school. The schools will be able to support the kids if they have any questions or are upset. Have an early night, a good sleep and just do relaxing things tomorrow.  

Hi, I’m in a very similar position, found out following a mammogram recall.  It’s been a whirlwind and a shock and it’s all happened over the last three weeks but booked in for surgery in 4 weeks time.  I think the word cancer is so frightening. So far my prognosis is excellent and I’m focussing in that as much as I can but I still have a wobble every so often even though I’ve been reassured this type is totally curable.  I think it’s to be expected to be frightened and panicky because of the connotations of the word but breast cancer, particular types, is very treatable these days x

I’ve been doing just that, driving myself insane