Waiting on results from a week ago,go in today to find out.

Have breast lump.Had mammogram, ultrasound and biopsies. 

Consultant said its "presenting "as cancerous. So those words have been dancing round my mind for a week.

The waiting has to be the worst part.

I just want to know either way so I can get on with it.

I have a 9yr old daughter. She needs me.

Will read on to see how you get on.

Thinking of you xx

Thank you. I will think of you too. My head feels proper mashed at minute. Its awful all of this i feel sickly with it all today. Our daughters do need us.. she is all i can think about. Sending you love xx

I’m so sorry to read this, I have been thinking of you and wondering how you got on. I here many say the waiting and not knowing is the worst part, so it’s good you are feeling a sense of relief and determination. Sending you a virtual hug xxx 

Thank you.

Yeah even in the consultation room me and my dad sat for about half hour waiting on doctor/nurse coming to tell me,that was like a pressure cooker, confined in a room waiting!

But basically she came out with it in the first sentence so there's definitely no beating about the bush(so to speak lol)

So who ever is waiting you certainly will know within the first sentence they say to you  what the outcome of results are.

I also didn't expect to be examined again,so bare that in mind.

*** myself about the "spot-on my liver though.

That'll be the next wait!

Xxxx

How did they find the liver spot? Perhaps it’s just something totally unrelated. I can imagine how scared you are about that though! This flipping journey is one thing after another, my biopsied boob is all rashy today so now and thanks to google I’m convinced I have inflammatory breast cancer. 

It’s good that they don’t beat round the bush as you have had enough of waiting and guessing! It’s awful, you kind of feel like you’re living in a weird little world xxx 

Oh I had a C T scan 2 days after my mammogram/ultrasound/biopsies  of the breast lump.

They found it on that.

The MRI will be more detailed. 

Yeah they say don't look at Google,but when you're left to your own devices at 3.30 in the morning with a phone in your hand then ,yes!we look.

We know we shouldn't but we do.

xxxx

Yes!

it's like your stuck in a world with this alien bump inside you.

Your looking out at everyone else for help,but you just look normal to them.

They don't know about the sneaky little secret that's hiding in your body.

Weird.

That’s a great way to describe it! Outwardly people think you’re fine but inside we most definitely are not! 

So true, when I’m left on my own I go to dr google! A very hard thing not to do especially when you just want answers, 

You sound like you’re being so well looked after and amazing they’ve saved time by doing a ct scan whilst you waited for the biopsy results. 

Lots of love to you, keep chatting whenever you need too xxx

oh and we must stay off google xxx

Hi Vamp. I've read all your replies after your appointment and I'm sorry it's the news it has been. But as you say I found the wait for the result the worst bit too. 

My breast MRI also picked up something on my liver so I have a liver MRI scan too. Turned out to be cysts and nothing to worry about. 

Your plan sounds very like mine. It's very much one step at a time. 

I had my surgery on Wednesday and only told my 5 and 6 year old about the cancer and operation on Sunday. Whilst they are a little younger than your girl they took it better than I thought. 

Keep in touch. Xx

Aw thanks for getting in touch, I'm so glad someone has a similar story ,everyone's experience seems so,so different. I'm hopeful that tests find nothing else

hold your little ones tight

I will let you know how I get on, my surgery is not till end of july.

Take care xxx

Sorry to hear your results.. mine as come back same too.. ductal carcinoma.. dr was very confident towards me and said its treatable and even asked if i wanted to preserve my eggs etc for a pregnancy later on. Its going to be a bumpy road for us! We got this! If you ever want a buddy im here xx

Aw I'm so sorry to hear this .Been wondering how you got on.

Don't you feel its a weird sense of relief just the knowing?

Not the news any of us wanted to hear though. 

One step at a time.

Yes I guess we have strangers on a screen as buddies now all going through similar situations. 

Take care will look for your new thread to keep up with your story.

Take care xxx

Aw I'm so sorry to hear this .Been wondering how you got on.

Don't you feel its a weird sense of relief just the knowing?

Not the news any of us wanted to hear though. 

One step at a time.

Yes I guess we have strangers on a screen as buddies now all going through similar situations. 

Take care will look for your new thread to keep up with your story.

Take care xxx

Yes as weird as it sounds i feel more of a weight lifted just knowing and knowing which type it is too. 

I just want to crack on with treatment now! Even though i am scared at the same time. I told i could be waiting a few week for chemo and in my head im thinking what if it is spreading though.. is it normal to think that? I did mention it to the dr and nurse and they just shook there heads. X

I had exactly the same worry about it spreading whilst waiting for treatment. I think it's a totally normal worry.  Hopefully you'll start treatment soon. X

Thank you for replying.. this is what i am going through right now. Did you speak to your consultant about those worries? X

Not the consultant but I did speak to a few nurses of different occasions. They were quite dismissive of it to be honest when I said I was worried about the wait and just said you are already on treatment (referring to the tamoxifen) but I'm not sure how effective that is before any other treatment.  However the op came around quickly. Now I just need to wait for more results. The waiting  for results are horrid but I'm more relaxed now than I was waiting for the biopsy results.   I'm normally an anxious person and I usually overthink everything but I think I've come to the realisation that I can't do that here as it will probably be worse for me.  So I put it to the back of my mind. X