Beyond scared at this moment in time 

Ive had reoccuring gastristis for 2 years and this recent episode is taking its toll. 

the pain is intense left side under my rib, heartburn feeling sick when eating, have lost over 28lbs in three months due to lack of appetite/ anxiety/stress 

Dr sent me for a CT (with contrast) scan, which I was told was reassuring apart from minimal thickening of the bowel wall, so he decided to do a Qfit test which came back positive, so now on a two week referal. 

I spoke to the Colorectal triage team today about my stomach sympoms and they want to book me in for an emergency endoscopy as the CT report makes no mention that they even looked at my stomach, despite it being requested and mentioning every other organ around it that appeared normal.

now im super anxious, I have a little boy who ive had to give up breastfeeding due to the anxiety and Panic attacks im having. 
Im just wondering if anyone had any positive experiences with this