Severe melanoma anxiety

I (15f) have recently been so worried lately of having skin cancer, particularly melanoma. It has got to the point where I am too scared to go to the GP because I am convinced that I have stage 4 cancer so I'm wondering if anyone here can share some advice.

I have a mole on my armpit which is about 3mm and is an oval shape with a slight blur on the top. The thing that scares me most is the varying shades, it is mainly brown with some black/dark brown clusters in it, maybe a tiny bit of red too and from the side it kind of looks like it has a dip in the middle. It looks like it is slightly scabbed but I think it does get irritated by my clothes sometimes, I have never seen it bleed heavily or ooze. It feels weird, hard when I press directly down but I can move it around and it feels more like a skin tag. I don't remember when I got this mole but it was definitely at least a few years ago and I don't think it has changed too much, at least not in shape maybe in colour. Over the last few days I have been obssesed with it and am constantly checking and measuring to make sure it hasn't changed. It scares me so much that I could literally have had melanoma for years now and not know it. 

I went to the doctor for something unrelated about a year ago and he said that my lymph nodes felt slightly swollen. However I couldn't feel anything and it worries me that a similar situation is happening now and that the cancer has at least spread to my lymph nodes. 

I have OCD/health anxiety so this fear has been really hard for me to get rid of, statistics usually help me but I always worry that I'm that one in a million person my age who dies of cancer.

I have no family history of skin cancer, although atypical moles do run in my family and my grandad had to get some removed because they looked suspicious. I never have used a tanning bed in my life, I previously got sunburned badly a few times, but it has never been near my armpit. I just worry that I have faulty genes or something and if I go the GP I will get a terminal diagnosis. I'm sorry if this sounds silly but I really need some advice from others who have been through similar things.

Thanks so much in advance!

  • Hi - I really feel for you, but it is important that you seek medical advice to put your mind at rest. The chances are that it will not be cancer, but if it is diagnosed you need treatment sooner rather than later. My story is similar but unfortunately I was diagnosed at the outset with stage 3 melanoma due to a mole on my back being cancerous and having spread to my lymph nodes. I then developed a lesion on the brain and it was upgraded to stage 4. The treatment I received was life saving and I have now been clear for almost 5 years. It is all very frightening at the outset but the outcome can be very positive. Don’t leave it undiagnosed too long. Best wishes to you for the future