Breast clinic

I can’t cope waiting for my appointment on the 4th of March. I can’t function! I’m constantly checking my boobs every two minutes it’s really making me ill. I keep seeing weird marks and thinking it’s inflammatory breast cancer. I feel so so ill with it.  I had a private ultrasound prior  that said fibroadenoma but I keep thinking they’d have to biopsy at my nhs app to confirm and what if they’re wrong and the breast consultant says cancer. The irony of it all was that I was referred because the dr felt thickening skin on my right well nothing showed on that one on the ultrasound.

my fear stems from mums breast cancer scare in Dec which thankfully came back benign. I keep thinking thinking I’m dying and really frightened. 

  • Hi Njh91, sorry to hear you are going through such a worrying time. I would suggest you avoid going on Google, I did this and it was a big mistake. I just ended up scared and also convinced myself I had inflammatory breast cancer. At one of my appointments they suggested doing a skin biopsy, to put my mind at rest. It is always an anxious time, waiting for appointments and results. Good luck with your appointment, hope all goes well. Xx

  • Hi pippin thank you for your reply. Google is horrendous for the worst possible outcome isn’t it. It’s not helped me one bit either. How did your appointments go? I hope your well? Xx

  • I will be starting chemo on 4th March, but have been reassured that I will get through this. I didn't have inflammatory breast cancer thank goodness and now stay away from Google, it really doesn't help. This site has been amazing for support and reassurance, with people sharing experiences and offering advice. Let me know how you get on, always here for a chat. Xx

  • Hi I’ve just joined and not sure what I’m actually doing. My friend also went through very similar thing as yourself. She got herself into a real state, especially online, but it turned out to be breast cysts, but by the time she had her app she’d convinced herself of the worst, which I totally get, but stay strong, think positive, try to wait for the right and professional advice and prognosis, i hope to hear good news soon from you. 

  • Wishing you all the best on your journey pippin. Reach out if you ever need a chat. Keep us updated. Sending love. You’ve got this xx

  • Thank you for your encouraging reply. Pleased your friend was ok. I’m really unwell with the worry. I don’t know how I can keep it together. Xx 

  • She totally is ok, it was a worrying time but in the end it wasn’t cancer, I always try to think logically but emotion is powerful, but try to reassure yourself, that you are now dealing with it, which is better, you can do this, try to focus on your everyday life. I write a little to do list for the next day each night, it may help you do that, keep busy, keep talking to people, hoping for good news very soon. 

  • I feel awful because I’ve had an ultrasound privately prior to this and they put fibroadenoma. But my head is taking me to dark places thinking that she is wrong and they will tell me at the clinic ’s something sinister  I wish I could I think more logical. You’ve been really kind thank you xx

  • I’m not sure of your personal circumstances, but myself, I’d challenge the dark thoughts, swap them for positive thoughts, go and get some fresh air or visit friends or relatives, remember not to stop living,  writing down how you feel can release negative emotions, my go to is laughter always, even through tears you can laugh. You can do this. Little steps. 

  • Hello Nhj, try and think positive now . As everyone else says ,the waiting is horrendous . I started off with an inverted nipple in July 22 and got through the wait just being positive and busy too . Mine was breastcancer ,had bilateral mastectomies followed by chemotherapy .All went well , think my daft sense of humour got me  through it .Talk to people and think of fun things now . Hopefully all will be well ,but whatever it is you will deal with it . I finished chemo a year ago , have hair and new breasts and am trying to make the most of life .I hope all will be well,keep in touch xxxx