Feel free to ignore my last large paragraph and focus on the 2 questions!!

I waited around 25 days for an ‘urgent’ ultrasound appointment because of a lump in my neck, which I’ve had for nearly a year now. When I first noticed it, I didn’t say anything because, around the same time, my Mum was diagnosed with thyroid cancer: I thought it’d seem like I was making stuff up for attention (which isn’t an outrageous assumption of teens- I was 16 at the time & have a poor relationship with my family). It’s also grown in the past two weeks, or so, and feels slightly harder (I don’t know if that’s the right word to use).

I’m not sure if the person who did my ultrasound was a radiologist or an ultrasound technician.

My question is:

Can the technician (or radiologist) tell you there are no abnormalities on your ultrasound if there are?? Or might he not know, but say it anyway to try and soothe my mind as it’s not his job to tell me if something is wrong.

He told me he didn’t see anything abnormal and the lump in my neck could just be asymmetrical muscles. But it definitely doesn’t feel like asymmetrical muscles.

After I found out that the technician can’t tell you your results, I learnt how to read Sonograms.  It was nice to be able to recognise the structures in my own neck, but I wasn’t allowed to view the ultrasound screen (I don’t know what it’s actually called) when it was showing the structures around my lump. The guy told me to turn my head to the left (away from the screen) every time he went near the lump, but I was allowed to look at the screen when he was around other areas of my neck. When he went over the left side of my neck, he didn’t tell me to turn my head to the right, just keep my head straight, but he didn’t seem to mind when I did turn my head to the right to view the ultrasound. By the way, I could only view the ultrasound if I was sat upright. Absolutely no chance of viewing it when I was laying down. Either way, it was cool to view the sonogram and be able to identify the structures in my own neck.

Am I just overthinking his actions? I know I wouldn’t be allowed to view the ultrasound if there was an obvious abnormality as I have to wait for my doctor to tell me about that. 

I know it sounds insane, but I was hoping it was Thyroid Cancer or something. I cried when it wasn’t. Cancer means there’s at least treatment and a chance of me getting better. Otherwise, I’m stuck with the mental anguish of constant lethargy. The inability to have a normal life and do normal things without losing my energy is driving me insane.

This next part is just a little summary of the symptoms I’ve been experiencing and how they’ve affected me, but it’s not relevant to the question. More relevant to I’m struggling so much and not receiving help.

I’ve been complaining of fatigue for a few years now, and it’s only gotten worse. They literally only did something when they saw a lump. Also, my Mother had Thyroid Cancer, my brother had Hodgkin Lymphoma, and my Aunt had breast Cancer. My school attendance is horrible because of how lethargic I get, and it’s not just school; it’s also a lot of other things, like hanging out with friends and missing out on hobbies. Small Tasks drain me. I can hardly do anything, and if I don’t sleep or eat enough, it feels as if a ton of bricks are on my muscles, so I have no energy whatsoever to move them. That usually happens when I wake up and lasts a few hours before my body has the energy to move them. Thank God that only happens once or twice every month or so, but usually after I’m still relatively limited. I have a horrible memory & experience a lot of brain fog. Sometimes, if I make it to school, I end up losing most of my energy mid-class and feel half-dead. A 10-minute nap might help me feel less horrible, and a 30-minute nap might give me the reboot I need, which is weird because even after 8 hours (or more) of sleep I still wake up tired. Rarely ever refreshed.

I’m honestly going insane trying to find out what’s wrong with me so I can get treatment and start to feel better.