Hello Bubbles,

I can completely relate. I have crippling health anxiety. Currently writing this from my bed as I've tried getting up this afternoon and felt so ill from.the anxiety that i decided my bed is my safe place! Ive recently been given an urgent 2 week referral too. I found a lump in one breast which is very painful but wasnt too worried..at the time! As soon as my doctor felt my other breast and found another lump I didn't know i had, I immediately went into shut down mode! Barely eaten in the three days since. Not even thirsty. I feel frozen with fear and imagining all sorts (hair loss, death etc!). Im already scared if death and now i just feel debilitated and desperate. Ive tried borrowing some money to book privately but ironically, they're all closed at the weekend, which has made me feel worse. My mum died of ovarian cancer but no ine else in my family has Cancer history so im trying to calm down but instead my brain is on overdrive.

Feel so scared and alone. 

Im thinking of you. Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. Hugs x

Hi Danni your not alone lovely. I’ve been the same in bed unable to get up. Literally crippled with fear. It’s debilitating isn’t it  I would call them Monday to be asked to go on the cancellation list. I’m going to call back too. Let’s try and help each other get through the wait. I’m so sorry to hear about your mum, the trauma of that won’t help your anxiety either. Sending you so much love xxx

Hope you’re ok Dannii, it could be the HRT causing blips in the boobs, how long have you been on it? I’m not doing good today and have left to wait but trying to keep busy x

hope you’re ok too NhJ91, so yours is now tomorrow? Try to distract yourself lovely. I keep getting the panic swallow me up but am trying to get on with my day. It doesn’t help with the intrusive thoughts but it does take the time away xx

Hey bubbles how you doing? Yeah I got a call from the clinic saying I can come in tomorrow 11am. I cancelled the private one as it seemed silly paying all that money when I had the nhs one the following day. That way I can have everything done in one day. My guts telling me it will all be ok but my heads telling me the most horrific outcomes. I feel sick to my stomach xx

So glad you are being seen tomorrow. Hang in there, it’s a horrendous feeling isn’t it. I’ve just chased the NHs who said they will call me to be seen by the 7th March and I will have a mammogram the same day but it doesn’t look like they will tell me the results. I’m going to keep my private appointment for now and see what happens on the day. I am the same as you, feel sick to my stomach and have been looking at stupid things online like chemo and just way in front of where I need to focus - whxih is on today

so stressful 

stay in touch xx

Hope you got on ok Vickie x

Hello Bubbles. Nearly three weeks. Ive been telling myself that but the one i felt first was painful months ago. Back in bed now until my partner picks me up for appointment xx

That's great they told you that, after chasing them up. Im hoping it comes around quickly for you. My mind is another level today xx

They don’t seem to give much notice to they. Reading over a few posts it seems to be the day before, that gives me anxiety too as constantly checking my phone!

Please try not to google. I did this earlier and had a melt down. For my sanity I can’t do it anymore. I have my ultrasound images from the previous place and keep reviewing them but I’m not a professional so need to stop this. I’m a nervous wreck I’m shaking, feel sick. I can’t bear this any longer Xx

I called the breast clinic in floods of tears yesterday and the breast nurse called. She was so lovely and messaged the appointment team for me. I think they realised the extent of my anxiety xx 

I called the breast clinic in floods of tears yesterday and the breast nurse called. She was so lovely and messaged the appointment team for me. I think they realised the extent of my anxiety xx 

This is so fab, they must see so many women in there frightened. Really hope you get answers tomorrow x

Thank you. I just want today to end quickly. If the ultrasound is correct and it’s a fibroadenoma I think they will have to biopsy to confirm. Then that will be more waiting  I keep thinking what if the lymph node is connected and I have something serious. All sorts of stuff is running through my head xx

It’s easy for me to say as I’m having the same thought processes but try not to get too far ahead. Get through today and I pray you get reassurance tomorrow xx

Thank you! I pray we all get the good news  it’s all so scary right now xxx

I’ve been thinking of you danni. I hope all is well xx

Thank you. Seen consultant, had mammogram and ultrasound and now waiting to see the consultant to go through if anything was found xx

Thought i was going to pass out at one point. Will update soon. 

Thinking of you all. Sending hugs xx

It sounds so far so good. Let us know. Sending hugs right back xxx

Fantastic well done Dannii fingers crossed . Well done you’re doing fab xx