Scared and alone

Newly diagnosed with bile duct cancer there is a 5 year survival rate and I am 4 years in and they have not offered me any treatment and I’m not viable candidate for surgery or a transplant I am losing weight hand over fist I live off  milkshakes And am having a feeding tube put back in. I’m getting sicker and sicker every day I’m so alone I want it to end now no one is helping me x