Hello, 

I noticed my nipple was flat on the 23rd December and then found a lump in my breast and another under my armpit. What with Christmas etc, I didn't get to see the doctor until the 3rd January who made an urgent referral for me and I was seen this Tuesday. The consultant didn't go as far to say it is cancer, however he did say it was very worrying and immediately referred me for an MRI and CT scan. I had a mammogram, ultrasound and biopsy on Tuesday and have an appointment scheduled for next Wednesday to speak to the consultant again. I'm really confused as to how I didn't feel it before, it's such a big lump! I know I checked myself in October, and I didn't feel anything. I have a bit of pain in my arm on and off too so am worried it might have spread. I am trying really hard not to worry but I can't help but get upset when I think about it, especially having to tell my family bad news. I'm 33 and my dad is poorly (with something that is hereditary so I'm worried about that, too!) But I don't want to worry my family now unless I need to. 

My partner came with me to the appointment and will come with me next week. He is really struggling as well, his dad passed away when he was quite young from a brain tumour and he is naturally thinking the worst, although he is trying not to show it. Feel like I need to be strong for him. 

I found this forum and just thought it might help writing it all down. The waiting is so hard!