Oh gosh. I've no idea what any of that means. It sounds like you've got a great team around you so that's reassuring. All I know is that treatment now is so much better than what it used to be. I'm finding when I open up to people about where I'm upto with it all the majority have had a very similar experience, or been through treatment. 

Sending lots of healing love your way xx

Thank you, Dr was amazing. Really hope that you don't have to wait too much longer and you get better results than me. Let us know how it goes. Xx

Thanks Jolamine for all your good advice it has been so helpful. I'm 61 and children all grown up, also have two gorgeous grandchildren. Have already discussed my diagnosis with all of the kids and my elderly parents. Kept the chats ubeat and positive so they didn't get worried or scared. I'm also very lucky to have a husband with a very positive attitude, which helps so much as I'm such a worrier. I'm sure waiting for results of ct scan will be a bit stressful, as this is what will show if it has spread or not. Dr did say with the type of cancer I have she expected to see it in the first lymph node, but she will remove all from underarm during surgery. I'm a bit worried about it spreading to other lymph nodes while waiting for treatment, but the dr said nothing will change that quickly.Going to chat with Dr again next week about the surgery. My sister in law had a lumpectomy first, then had to have a mastectomy afterwards. I'm thinking I'd rather go straight for mastectomy, rather than go through two surgeries. She did say they would do reconstruction at the same time. Not sure if they will take my preference into consideration, or if they just decide. Will definitely take your advise about writing down all my questions and getting hubby to write down the answers. Thanks again for your support. Xx

How are you feeling today?

I know it's really hard, the waiting is the worse bit. Hopefully won't be much longer and it will be good news. Keep us updated of any news. Xx

I'm feeling OK at the moment and trying to keep busy. Think waiting for results of ct scan will be a bit challenging, but I need to try and stay positive that it will all be ok and I can beat this.

Hi Pippin. How r u today? Did they say how long it would be until your next appointment? Xx

Hi, had a lovely dinner out with hubby last night. Unfortunately didn't have a very good night's sleep. After biopsies I had been taking Nytol to help me sleep. Decided I couldn't take it long term and as I was feeling OK, decided not to take it last night. I lay awake feeling a bit lonely and scared to be honest. Mind goes into overdrive when it's dark and quiet. Feeling better this morning after shower and hair wash. Have visitors this afternoon and this evening, so that will keep me distracted.  How are you feeling today?

MJT1977 Oh my goodness I feel very much like you. I’m glad that we are not alone even though this waiting game and uncertainty is excruciating. Like you I have been looking for support online.

I hope that you get some results soon and that  all be well, as much as possible, I have my fingers crossed for both of us. 

I understand the  being the rock and having the feeling of loneliness  in all of this. I’m feeling very similar to you. The worry and the if’s and the maybes.
Feels to me easier to talk to someone who’s going through something similar. 

 I found a mass on my tummy on a Thursday about two weeks ago, thought it over until the following Monday, when I decided to call the gp for an emergency appointment.

I have scans next week and the next day I will see the consultant.
I’m also 46, born in 1977. My mind is going crazy with worry and my children are much older than yours, so I can only imagine the thoughts that your mind is going through. It’s a hard time and I can only wish and hope that we will all be ok. 

Best wishes xx