I have blood on my urine and a lot to. 

I feel I'm going crazy. 

I'm worried sick as I have 2 disabled children who rely on me for everything .

I was told no infection .bloods ok .but the blood loss with a clot from the urethra needs investigating .

I am feeling scared everytime I go toilet as there's blood and I go in panic mode .

If it's calm then I'm left going in to denial mode .

I have had left kidney spin on and off for ages but thought it was just my back and never thought of kidneys .

I have a lot of pain in the left side of my lower abdomen which I believe they call groin.

What's that area? 

It feels I am holding a wee bit I don't actually need to go.

Or it feels like pmt or did in previous times .

So I ignored it .

I'm on the memopause been on 18 months .

Has anyone else had this? 

I do worry I'm making a fuss to Drs I often keep qui.

It's Led now to a lot of blood loss.

Can anyone relate?