Doctor FORGOT to press send - beyond stressed

My Doctor told me they had a made a red flag referral for a breast lump and shrinking breast on December 4th. I was worried as I hadn't heard from the hospital yet and it's been almost 3 weeks so I called them today to see if I could take a cancellation. Turns out my doctor didn't press send on their referral. I am so mad, and stressed and sad and overwhelmed with feelings. I haven't been to the doctor in 4 years because I can never get an appointment. Now when I managed to get one, they totally break my trust. I just don't know what to do. The hospital told me that their red flag (2ww) time is currently about 6 weeks from when they receive the referral. Because my doctor hasn't sent it yet and isn't in until after Christmas it will be at least 10 weeks. If it's something sinister I don't know how I will cope. Early detection is vital and this wait is unbearable. We can't afford private care so just feel alone and stuck.