Hi, 

I’m 21 years old and in August I realised that the swollen lymph-node in my neck from when I had tonsillitis did not go away. I became concerned and sought medical help, I’m currently waiting for an ultrasound (and possible biopsy) on the 20th of December. I just want to know if I have it. I have a pit in my stomach that’s telling me I do. I don’t want to die, not yet. I have so much left to do. Even if I go through treatment, will I still only live for a few years afterwards? I’m so scared. No one is taking me seriously because I’m so young, my mum thinks I’m being dramatic and the doctors pushed me through for an ultrasound but told me they’re not worried and there’s nothing wrong with me. I don’t know what to do 

I have swollen Lymph-nodes in my neck, my arm pit and my groin, my legs are itchy all the time, I’m constantly waking up in sweats. Even in these subzero temperatures. I’m getting UTIs so often even though I’ve never had one before in my life. My legs keep getting pain as if it’s in my nerves, my leg goes tingly and numb. I’m dying aren’t I?