I don't really know how to write this, or who I am writing it for, but today I think I have somewhat started to accept that I think I sm unfortionaly the rare case of someone who has lost their orgasm to LLETZ. I had my procedure for CIN3 and CGIN 16 weeks ago and despite following all the guidelines I can not orgasm in the same way. I can get the just before, and I know it has happened after. But It's like there is a glitch and the real crescendo is gone. I've tried a lone, we've tried together. With toys, without.With penetration, without. I've been having such intense sex dreams they could be called wet dreams. But nothing hits. Nothing. I feel so broken and alone. So so so deeply sad. I didn't know this was a possibility not really. But i know even if I did I'd have gone through with it. I don't blame the lovely medical staff who helped me through that awful day. But I grieve. I'm only 32 and can't reckon with the fact that I will never orgasm the same again. Is there anything I can do. Is there anyone who has gotten better, gotten through this?
