Hi All,

My names Nathan and I'm 26, I'm writing this post to just try and find some comfort and help deal with doubts in my mind.

Start of september I had a cold/flu that I never went to the docs for and got over eventually, few weeks later into October I was anxiously rubbing my neck when I felt a small pea sized lump (1CM) that suddenly sent me into anxious overdrive. I visited a Nurse at my local GP who told me it was a Lymph node and nothing to worry about. I then went home and consulted Dr Google (Bad Idea) and learned about Lymphoma. I then proceeded to stress have a panic attack and went straight back to the docs the next week to see a Dr for their opinion. I was met with an identical response of nothing to worry about but come back if it doesnt go away by november. 

At this stage I had no other symptoms except for few aches and the feeling of the start of a sore throat.

Weeks went by and after constantly worrying that these lumps would not go away and a few panic attacks I started to get other symptoms, first a dry cough followed by a sore throat then the feeling of a lump in my throat. I started to feel like something was actually wrong but the 2 symptoms I hadn't yet had were Itchy skin or Night Sweats, over the next few days guess what... Itchy Skin but it wasn't quite itchy just feeling prickly? like small spike in my jeans poking me or similar to a very mild pins and needles. The friday just gone I decide time to go back and speak to someone else and the next doctor had a good feel around my neck and jaw and told me you have a few swollen lymph nodes all under 2cm biggest being 1.5cm nothing to worry about this is normal. I mentioned all the above symptoms and how anxious I was feeling but he was pretty confident it's nothing, he told me that if I was to have Lymphoma I would notice weight loss and wake up in the night feeling like a bucket of water was dropped on me.

Now last night I had some new symptoms of a cold/flu Burning sensation in nose, chest pains in front and back of chest that felt like I was being stabbed and to top it all off woke up twice in the night covered in sweat. This all makes sense to me as just flu/cold as today I have congested nose and a strange taste in my mouth that which I usually get with a cold but I cannot shake this feeling that they are all connected and my skin is feels pretty sensitive today and my legs feel cold.

I speak to the people around me and they all seem to think it's psychological as within the last 6 months lost my mum during a heart valve operation, Nan (Mum side) to a stroke, Aunt (Mums Side) to Bowel Cancer and my other nan (Dads side) has just being diagnosed with lung cancer and a brain tumour. Logically I know that our brain given enough stress can manifest certain symptoms but I cannot shake this feeling that I'm next and I have Lymphoma.

Can anyone share their experience or guide me on what I could do next, does this sound like it's just my head overthinking things and I've just got a cold/flu? I feel like if I go back to the doc again I'll be met with the same response again.