So so scared…

Hi all, 

I have had ongoing symptoms since 2022 and in January 2023 I finally went to the gp. She said she couldn’t see anything wrong but gave me some piles cream. I went through tubes and tubes of the stuff with no relief. Come September I was in extreme pain and couldn’t sleep, went to the gp the next day (still in pain) who sent me to a&e. After 8 hours I was told they couldn’t see anything wrong and I was referred to general surgery. First appointment with general surgery didn’t go well, I wasn’t listened to at all and was sent away with yet more piles cream and lactulose. I had my follow up general surgery appointment on Monday 23rd October and the doctor was very concerned and has referred me for an urgent colonoscopy which is this coming Monday 30th October. I am absolutely petrified, not only for what might be found but the last time I was in a theatre I almost died (birth complications) and haven’t been sedated since I was a toddler. I don’t have anyone to talk to as my partner has a history of bowel cancer in his family and has lost 2 sisters and his dad, so I don’t want to worry him unnecessarily or any other friends/family. So I thought this would be the best place to share my feelings xx

Parents
  • Hi Kerry,

    A very warm welcome to our forum.

    I am sorry to hear of all that you have been through this year. The colonoscopy is very straightforward. You will probably be offered pain killers, gas and air or sedation. Was it you or your mother who had complications with sedation at your birth? Make sure to tell your care team about this previous experience, so that they can circumvent the problems that you had previously. I myself have stopped breathing under anaesthetic and know how nervous this has made me when undergoing any surgery, so I can sympathise with you. Fortunately, you have choices in this case, so any problems should be avoidable.

    I am so sorry to hear about your partner's family history of cancer and can understand why you don't want to worry him. This must be very hard to keep to yourself. Do you not have anyone else that you could speak to? 

    It will be good to get this over and done with on Monday and then hopefully, get some answers.

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

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  • Hi Kerry,

    A very warm welcome to our forum.

    I am sorry to hear of all that you have been through this year. The colonoscopy is very straightforward. You will probably be offered pain killers, gas and air or sedation. Was it you or your mother who had complications with sedation at your birth? Make sure to tell your care team about this previous experience, so that they can circumvent the problems that you had previously. I myself have stopped breathing under anaesthetic and know how nervous this has made me when undergoing any surgery, so I can sympathise with you. Fortunately, you have choices in this case, so any problems should be avoidable.

    I am so sorry to hear about your partner's family history of cancer and can understand why you don't want to worry him. This must be very hard to keep to yourself. Do you not have anyone else that you could speak to? 

    It will be good to get this over and done with on Monday and then hopefully, get some answers.

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

Children
  • Thank you for your reply. The  sedation had was when I was a toddler for eye operations, it made me very sick afterwards. The birth complications were when I gave birth to my first born, I haemorrhaged badly and was rushed into theatre and almost died. I have extreme anxiety about going back into a theatre for this colonoscopy. I’m hoping I get some answers either way because not knowing is awful. 
    will keep the post updated when I have some news xx

  • Hi Kerry,

    I am not a doctor, but I suspect that the sedation you had for your eye, would be very different from the one used for a colonoscopy.  The haemorrhage sounds more like a birth complication and is unlikely to happen with a colonoscopy.  As I said before, make sure that your care team know about both complications and they'll be sure to avoid a recurrence.

    I shall be thinking of you on Monday and hope that you sail through it all, despite your anxiety.

    Kind regards,

    Jolaminexx

  • Hi Kerry

    I know its easier said than done but try stay busy from now till your colonoscopy-a little tip I find the liquid bowel prep easier to get down if it's cold from the fridge.  I having had a colonoscopy in the past would opt for sedation, gas and air didn't work for me.  Its just a light sedation.  I'm high risk for bowel cancer like yr husband family history and pre cancerous polyps.  You'll have more of an idea when it's over it's not long to wait now.  Sending love and best wishes and keep us updated will be thinking of you.