Hi everyone.

I don't know if this will help, my body is having hot flushes and shakes reading through everyone's stories.

I noticed a large lump in my breast and in my armpit 3 days ago. They are paindu and solid and the lump on my breast was visible and the skin around it very red. I had doctors Monday, breast clinic Tuesday which included scan / mamogram / biopsy from breast and armpit. The lumps were referred to as large. Filled the whole screen. The anaesthetic was not highly effective, they could only take two samples from my breast instead of three.

They said it doesn't look like an abscess, which all three doctors thought it was before my mamogram. They said it doesn't look like a cyst. They said they don't know what it is, but of course cancer is in the realm of possibilities. They kept asking me if I'd knocked myself or if I feel unwell, I haven't/I don't.

I am in constant discomfort and pain. I am so scared. I cannot stop yo-yoing between fairly normal emotions and complete and utter breakdown. 

My appointment is still 8 days away, I don't know how I can do this. I don't know how to cope or what to think of what my options are. I really need help from someone who's been here before. 

I'm 33 years old and have a 4 year old son and I'm struggling to give anyone or anything my full attention. My eyes are swollen and sore and I'm just very, very sad. I have a history of depression and I'm worried about myself. 

Any advice or kind words welcome, anything I can do to survive this 8 days, please help x