Hello to whoever is reading, this is my first post here, so sorry if I get anything wrong in my post.

Just over 2 months ago, I found a small lump in my neck just under my jawline - only found it because it was hurting me. I waited some time but it did not go away, so when I went back to university (I am 19) I went to see the GP. Some blood tests were ordered which found I had mild lymphocytosis (which I also had in my previous blood test so it has been like that for some time). I was referred to ENT on a 2 week wait referral, and had an ultrasound and a fine needle aspiration at the hospital. The ultrasound found a "small hypoechoic nodule" where the lump was, apparently it is most likely a lymph node, but the lymph node on the other side is normal I think.

There has been a lot of reassurance that the FNA was "just a precaution to put my mind at ease", but I find that I cannot believe these words even if I try to. Both of the tests so far have come back abnormal - mild lymphocytosis and a hypoechoic lymph node - and because of this I just cannot stop worrying. The anxiety will not go away no matter how hard I try. I have been checking my NHS app non stop. Someone I know advised me not to check as much - since then I have been checking less but I cannot stop myself, I just want to know what's going on.

I feel like my life is on hold until I find out the results. This anxiety has been affecting my university work and my social life, my room is untidy, I can't even do my laundry because all of my energy is wasted on being anxious and I feel so pathetic but I just can't stop worrying. I am only happy when I am doing something fun like playing games or watching fun videos, this also feels like a waste of time when I should be doing my university work but it is the only way I can cope right now. The doctors said that the result would come in a week or so. It has been a week now and I have not heard anything. I don't want to bother the hospital because they must be busy with more urgent cases than mine, but at the same time I just want to call them and ask if they have any results for me - I think I will call them either tomorrow or on Monday.

Should I call them tomorrow? How can I cope with this anxiety and this waiting? Should I be worried or am I making a fuss over nothing? I feel as though I am being ridiculous but I just cannot stop.

Sorry this turned into a massive rant. Thank you very much for reading.