Hi All
I was sat in bed at 440am doing the thing I know I should not do! Googling! So instead I'm channelling my anxiety into joining this forum to chat to similar folks.
I'm waiting for the 2ww referral to the breast cancer clinic following an exam on Tuesday. I'd had a discomfort in my left boob for about 2 months which I was monitoring. Wasn't overly concerned but the ANP found a "5cm moveable mass with smooth edges" just above my nipple.
5cm??! I'm astonished that I didn't know it was there. I check my boobs regularly and have never noticed any lumps. I have had a bit of pressure when I went to bed (I'm a front sleeper), and also a bit of a niggling burning sensation which comes and goes. The ANP said I have very dense breasts, maybe its been lurking for a while and I've never known.
I work in a hospital lab. I know what it could potentially be (good or bad) and of course all logic is out of the window. I lost a friend to BC this year so that's in my mind at the moment.
I have the option of being referred to the breast unit at the hospital I work at, but then I'd have my colleagues handling my biopsies and then the doctors I work with would possibly have news about me which they are unable to discuss. It's a really good leading breast unit too but I feel maybe I'd want to go somewhere unrelated so I can compartmentalise my condition from my work, does that make sense?
Anyway I need to chase up the referral tomorrow according to my nhs app so I'll hopefully have more info then.
The exam has left my poor boob sore and my anxiety is giving me headaches. I've read all the info on waiting, I'm well aware I'm catastrophising it but can't seem to shake that mindset at the minute.
It's my day off tomorrow so hopefully I can keep busy.
Best wishes to all
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