Hello

I have been lurking here for a couple of weeks, not wanting to write anything down as it made it feel more real!  I al so sorry to those of you in the same position, or worse, than me.

I found a breast lump a few weeks ago, - well the dog did when he stood directly on it and I nearly jumped out of the bed it hurt so much!! i hadn’t noticed it before.

I got referred within the 2ww period and that’s when it all started looking a bit serious. At the ultrasound the radiologist said I had a ‘space invader’  which is quite funny I suppose. When I asked if it could be a cyst or a fibrodema she said it wasn’t either. She said not to worry they would know more when they got the biopsy results and deal with it. I had a look at the screen and it’s a hideous looking spikey thing, like a paint splat.  The radiologist was really lovely and I do feel she was preparing me for bad news, as was the nurse afterwards. The ‘c’ word was never used which was comforting though. 

I only have an 8 day wait for the results so they are next Thursday 17th. I veer between feeling fine and feeling almost sick with worry. I have things organised every day up until then and hopefully the time will go quickly. 

My husband seems ok with it but I have been very matter of fact, pretending I really am not that concerned when actually I am. 

Being in contact with others on here  in my situation will help I think as it’s so hard for anyone to understand how awful the waiting is!!!! Thanks for reading this X