I finally got the courage to get my smear test done. It  come back showing abnormal cells and positive hpv 

and that I’m high risk of cancer and will have to have a colposcopy, I tried not to think about it to much had 3 wks before my appointment, I done what most ppl do and Googled pictures of cervical cancer I don’t know what I thought I’d gain from it but I did it anyway. I put it to the back of my mind, until my appointment I looked at the screen and see what looked like I’d seen from Google pictures. The nurses were lovely helping me feel relaxed then she said it. I’m so sorry but you will need to have a biopsy done. I already knew before she said it I can’t explain it but I just knew. My results are due back in the next couple of weeks only now it seems to be all I can think about. And how do I tell my partner I’m literally so scared to get the results especially now. This literally feels like the longest wait ever! Sorry to rant but I’ve actually not spoken to anyone because I don’t know how to. And I just needed to offload a little bit