I have had 2 and a half weeks of worry, sleepless nights and loss of appetite losing 12lbs in weight. I know many of you are going through the same thing so I wanted to post this to offer any reassurance that I know is much needed in these times.
So, I had a large (golf ball size), firm, moveable, smooth lump in my left breast. As most of you probably are, I had convinced myself it was cancer. It was difficult to look at my children and my grandson without feeling like I was about to break their world apart after my appointment today.
I went to my appointment and after being told by the Consultant he was ‘concerned’ this had convinced me even more that my lump was the horrible little c word (take whichever ‘C’ you wish to use, both are apt!). In I went for my mammogram thinking it was just to confirm the worse. I was sent back to the waiting room and told I needed to wait for my ultrasound. Presumably, I thought, to take a measurement of my tumour and a biopsy. The longer I waited in the waiting room, which really wasn’t that long on the grand scale (just felt it) the more I convinced myself they were studying my mammogram to see where best to take a biopsy.
I was called in for my ultrasound, told to undress my top half and lie on the bed to wait. The nurse was making small talk whilst we waited for the consultant radiologist who took around 10 minutes. She entered the room, apologising as she was the only one on.
she smeared the jelly on my boob and within one minute told me it was a large cyst!! I asked if she was sure, if there was anything in it that could be cancer? She confirmed not, assured me my mammogram was fine, other than this and, drained it there and then allowing me to watch the pesky little begger to deflate on the screen. I burst into happy, relieved tears.
I have had off the scale anxiety levels since finding the lump. The relief was and is immense.
I hope this offers some comfort to those of you who I know are going through the psychological torture of waiting for appointments.
Thank you to all those that have chatted to me on this forum and offered their experiences and kindness.
I would also like to offer some thoughts and prayers to those who were not so fortunate as I was today and to know they are in my thoughts.
Much love
Chel
xxx