FIRM MOVEABLE LUMP WAS CYST!!! :-)

I have had  2 and a half weeks of worry, sleepless nights and loss of appetite losing 12lbs in weight. I know many of you are going through the same thing so I wanted to post this to offer any reassurance that I know is much needed in these times. 
So, I had a large (golf ball size), firm, moveable, smooth lump in my left breast. As most of you probably are, I had convinced myself it was cancer. It was difficult to look at my children and my grandson without feeling like I was about to break their world apart after my appointment today. 
I went to my appointment and after being told by the Consultant he was ‘concerned’ this had convinced me even more that my lump was the horrible little c word (take whichever ‘C’ you wish to use, both are apt!). In I went for my mammogram thinking it was just to confirm the worse. I was sent back to the waiting room and told I needed to wait for my ultrasound. Presumably, I thought, to take a measurement of my tumour and a biopsy. The longer I waited in the waiting room, which really wasn’t that long on the grand scale (just felt it) the more I convinced myself they were studying my mammogram to see where best to take a biopsy. 
I was called in for my ultrasound, told to undress my top half and lie on the bed to wait. The nurse was making small talk whilst we waited for the consultant radiologist who took around 10 minutes. She entered the room, apologising as she was the only one on. 
she smeared the jelly on my boob and within one minute told me it was a large cyst!! I asked if she was sure, if there was anything in it that could be cancer? She confirmed not, assured me my mammogram was fine, other than this and, drained it there and then allowing me to watch the pesky little begger to deflate on the screen. I burst into happy, relieved tears. 
I have had off the scale anxiety levels since finding the lump. The relief was and is immense. 
I hope this offers some comfort to those of you who I know are going through the psychological torture of waiting for appointments.
Thank you to all those that have chatted to me on this forum and offered their experiences and kindness. 
I would also like to offer some thoughts and prayers to those who were not so fortunate as I was today and to know they are in my thoughts. 

Much love

Chel

xxx

  • Thats amazing news chel so glad it all came back clear for you! I think the fact that the lump was so big was probably a good sign that it was a cyst, I'm hoping mine is too! Or something else benign. My appointment is on Friday. How long were you there for all together? My letter didn't give me any info.

    So pleased for you and glad you can carry on now and celebrate! Just keep on with your checks as cysts can come back! But you'll know its harmless if it does :) 

    I'm scared for my appointment, hoping I get good news like you! 

  • Oh but my lump isn't anywhere near golf ball size, its about 1cm which is more worrying to me

  • Apparently macrocysts (which I’m told what mine was) are not as common as microcysts. I worried as I felt I had a large tumour. I think we worry regardless. Please let me know how you get on xx

  • Chel 

    so kind of you to update everyone here lovely to hear good news it’s always welcome but lots who have good outcomes never report back so it’s hard for newbies to find good news this will help so many others coming through 

    hope you had a good sleep last night love Lara xxx 

  • Hello I was in there around an hour and a half which was way quicker than I thought. I hope you get on ok and good luck. Is your appt Friday? 

  • Yes my appointment is Friday 10am. I'm trying so hard not to touch my lump! Think I've been feeling it once or twice a day. I dread going in the bath and washing because I know ill have to feel it! Only 3 days to wait, its horrible! This will be my 4th 2ww referral, all for different things thankfully all benign, keep thinking I cant be lucky a 4th time. I'm on meds for restless legs which also help with anxiety, when I had my first 2ww I didn't eat sleep or leave my bedroom for the whole time, I was just locked in my room crying, my partner had to take a month off work to look after the kids and my dad was that worried about me he took a month off too! I'm not like that this time and I think its the meds, although my heads still loud with awful thoughts. I'm sure you understand this, I hope ill have good news like you! Sorry for waffling on lol

  • Did you say you can move your lump and it’s smooth? There is no need to apologise because I truly understand. The weight is absolute torture, going to bed thinking about it and waking up thinking about it and no doubt touching it and googling in between. 
    I was there before yesterday. I really hope you go into your weekend with a great result and you can relax after all the trauma. And I don’t say that lightly because it is traumatic the waiting we have to do. Your mind is in overdrive, your guts do somersaults and food sticks in your throat. I’m thinking of you x 

  • I think its smooth, but I don't think its that movable. It feels fixed to something I think, it defo doesn't move the way you describe yours did. And its solid. I'm trying not to touch it too much, I hate the fact I can feel it. Sounds stupid but I'm scared if it is cancer and I mess around with it too much I'll pop it like a balloon and end up with cancer splattered everywhere! I'm sure that's not how it works lol but in my head it is. I've not been googling apart from looking on the NHS website, as that's what sent me down a dark rabbit hole last time that took me 4 months to crawl out of. My cousin was diagnosed last year, she found a lump and left it 6 months before getting it checked! Chemo, radiotherapy and mastectomy has made a right mess of her but aslong as she sticks to her treatment plan her prognosis is good. She feels like giving up, as the meds she's now on for 10 years plus meds that put her into menopause are making her feel really ill, but they've told her if she stops there's nothing more they can do for her. But she's still hear so that gives me hope incase I have it too. Such a horrible disease!

  • It’s weird what you say about touching the lump because I felt that way too. Like I’d disturb it and it would spread. You’re right it doesn’t work that way but this is what over thinking does. I know this maybe won’t reassure you because nothing did me, I just kept thinking I’d be that minority. However to my knowledge, breast cancer dies not commonly start in the nipple. 
    At the moment it’s torture and like trudging through quick sand but soon you will know. It’s higher chance of it being nothing and you can put this horrid nightmare behind you. 

    Xx