Bellad 

sorry you had a diagnosis 

do you have any family or friends you can chat with , maybe your husband is shocked at the moment and this is how he's dealing with it , I'm not sticking up for him but some men can't deal with it .

good luck with everything 

love Lara ️

Thanks Lara 

I have a couple of amazing friends who I have spoke with . I don't want to say to them how my husband has been as I feel embarrassed. I know how he is but it's all about him. After 32 years you'd think I would know better.

Hi Bella's,

I'm sorry to hear of your diagnosis and your husband's selfish reaction. Lean on your friends, don't consider him at all and when you're better, re-evaluate your life as you only have one. Honestly,  it makes me so mad as I've been where you are and you are worth so much more. Take care of yourself and big hugs xx

Ballad 

yes I understand it's hard to say to your friends about him but , once you are over this you won't look back he will be sorry as you won't give him time of day if he's not here for you now he's never gunna be 

get your treatment and go live you life lovely .stay here also for support and chats x 

big hugs love Lara ️

Thank you. I don't know what I expected from him.

Unfortunately, you can never truly know someone until you need them. You can think someone is self-centred, you can think someone is next to useless, you can think someone will always have your back, but you don't truly know until moments like these. Some truly useless folk can actually show their true worth when you need them most. Same goes for folk who appear to care when things are rosy, but come a hurdle, are the first to go missing.

As a partner of someone that has went through hell for the last 2 years, I can sit here and make excuses for him, but the simple truth is, if what you typed is accurate (not doubting that it isn't), he's let you down. You get one life, and regardless of health or no health, it's better to rely only on yourself than be stuck with someone who is only concerned about themselves. If he's not here for you now, he never will be.

Funnily enough, it's people like him that expect to be waited on hand and foot if the roles were ever reversed.  You owe it to yourself to find your worth in life, and if you're not feeling it, then only you can change it.

You are so right. I do everything for him he is waited on hand and foot. My eyes have truly been opened. 

Bellad 

how are you feeling today lovely ? 
love Lara ️