Absolute mess with worry

I found a lump in my right breast Wednesday evening, on Thursday (yesterday) I saw a GP who felt the lump and said she doesn't feel worried at this stage but has referred me to the breast clinic. She did mention the breast felt a little firmer than the other.

I am absolutely bricking it thinking the worst, I have been in tears since finding the lump and with it being a long weekend I don't know what to do.

I can't help but think this is the worst.

I can't eat either and haven't now for about 4 days

  • Dottie 

    sorry you have found a lump 

    only 2 in ten Breast clinic appointments end up with a diagnosis it can be lots of things 

    try not to worry easier said than done 

    I wish you the best please let us no how you get on and we are here to support you lovely 

    big hugs love Lara ️

  • I'm so sorry you're having to face this, love. I know how much anxiety you must be feeling, having been there myself last year. As Lara said, most lumps turn out to be something other than cancer (cysts, infections, etc), but I know that won't be much comfort right now. Just try to keep busy and distracted if you can, go for nice walks and make the most of the lovely weather as that will help boost your mood and appetite, and help you sleep better. I'm saying a prayer for you and hope you'll update us when you're able. Hugs, Amy xx

  • I have poked and prodded so much I'm sure I saw a bruise earlier, I also keep getting odd one off pains but to be honest I wonder if that's from the same thing or my mind. I'm so scared it's unreal.

  • Hi Dottidoo,

    A very warm welcome to our forum.

    This is always a worrying wait. Try to remind yourself that your GP doesn't seem worried about your lump. Do you have any pastimes that could occupy you whilst you're waiting to be seen? Keeping yourself busy with something cn help the time to pass.

    As Lara said, chances are that this could be a fibroadenoma or a cyst and not cancer at all. You will usually get your appointment through within 2 weeks from the date of referral. Many of us feel additional aches and pains whilst we are waiting and these are often due to how much more we poke and prod our breasts to keep checking. Our imaginations also tend to go into overdrive and think the worst.

    Even if the worst should happen, diagnosis, treatment and aftercare have all advanced tremendously in the past few years. I lost my mum to secondary breast cancer and have had 2 bouts myself. There was just no comparison between the care which we both experienced. It is now 13 years since I was first diagnosed and I still lead a busy and fulfilling life.

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • I am sure I have found another one. I have been awake since 4am just lying worried.

    I can't face doing anything and I know that doesn't help but I just keep breaking into tears.

    I may ring the clinic on Tuesday and explain the mess I'm in. I can't function 

  • Hi Dottidoo, so sorry to hear of all your stress. Not knowing is just the worst thing. As the other ladies say, the lump is more likely to be something innocent but of course our imagination never lets us believe that. It may be worth ringing the clinic - cancellations happen and they may be able to fit you in earlier. I did find that after about three days of intense worrying after getting a recall letter, I felt a bit better. Think I burned all my anxiety up. I then felt sick on the morning of the clinic but strangely fine once I got there. I found brisk walks took my mind off it for a while and cooking, which I don't normally spend much time on. I hope you get an appointment soon xx

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    Hi Dottidoo,

    Most of us are an emotional mess at this stage. Frequent tears are normal too, but this is not such a bad thing as crying is a good stress reliever. It might be worth asking your GP for something to calm you down during this wait.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • I'm scared I'm now having a slight pain in my chest. I keep telling myself with my anxiety at the level it currently is it's more likely that than anything else. I just need lots of positive stories to help me through this 

    Someone once told me the more you think and search symptoms the more you find because the mind is a powerful thing 

    One positive since I first posted, I have managed to eat! Be it small but I managed it!

  • Hi Dottidoo,

    I am glad to hear that you have managed to eat something. Like you, I was absolutely terrified when I was told that I had cancer.  I lost my mum to secondary breast cancer. Diagnosis, treatment and aftercare have advanced so much in the past few years, that there was just no comparison between both of our experiences. I was first diagnosed 13 years ago and I still lead a busy and fulfiling life.

    I suspect that your chest pain is a sgn of the stress that you are under. Many of us experience all types of aches and pains, but most of these disappear, as soon as we discover what we're dealing with.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • I thought I should come back with my update ..

    On Friday I was seen at the hospital and told it is Fibrocystic Changes. I'm due back in 4-6 weeks. Anyway I can't help but think what if they missed something because they only found one lump to scan, they didn't ultrasound all of the breast just where the issue was. Now I'm convinced I can feel something else. Just wondering if I wait to raise it at my follow up or call the clinic tomorrow and ask what they suggest