Hi everyone,

I'm not really sure what I'm here for. I don't think I have any questions, but then I have so many questions. 
 

I've been suffering with very intense night time itching for years - around 6/7. Back and forth to the GP with no real answers.  I've also had fatigue for around 3 years, which has been getting worse.  All the usual blood tests showed up nothing. 
 

Then two months ago, I found a lump in my neck. It's just under the earlobe, at my jawline. Blood tests were negative so I was sent for an ultrasound today. They gave me a biopsy there and then, which I wasn't expecting. 
 

I should have the results in 10 days. They think it might be lymphoma of sorts. I also have other small nodes that are bigger than they should be and one swollen tonsil. 
 

I know that there are lots of other people going through so much more, but I'm feeling really sorry for myself. One minute I think I will just deal with whatever comes my way. But the next, I am absolutely petrified about having to leave my family if it comes to the worst. I know that I am not being reasonable. 
 

How do people get through the waiting?  Is there anything I should be doing?  Has anyone else had these symptoms?  I feel so out of control.