Hi.

I'm a 31 year old. I've been having some bleeding between periods and heavier that normal periods. I also have a history of cervical erosion which comes and goes, so have always experienced bleeding after sex at times. I've had a chronic thrush infection for about 6 months too that just won't go away. I do have hov but I don't know of its the cancer causing strain, I've never been told.

I went to the gp with a list of my symptoms, other things aside from these 2 weeks ago, (awful awful fatigue) and she said I would need to make another appointment to come back for the gynae issues as we were out of time. 

So yesterday I seen another doctor. Told her my symptoms and she asked a few more questions. 

Bleeding: yes

Excess discharge: yes

Back pain: yes (I had a car accident 2 years ago so was blaming a flare up from that)

Fatigue: the worst

She asked was my smear up to date and checked, June 2021 and its not due until June this year. But said she might aswell do another one while she's there.

During the procedure she got very quiet and finished and went and sat down. She told me there is a growth/nodule on my cervix, and a very large erosion. I have now been red flagged to gynae for investigation. 

I'm trying to not get ahead of myself and think the worst but I've cried non stop since. I'm a mother of 4 beautiful children and I just can't bare the thought of whats coming. 

I don't want to Google, but I know the symptoms are all there

How do I cope with the wait between now and whenever my appointment arrives? My back is constantly sore (like a dull ache) and I'm just imagining the absolute worst. 

I'm sorry I know this is probably off topic and unnecessary, but I don't want to tell family members and worry them over nothing. I just don't know how to cope right now