Terrified

Hi its a normal reaction to feel terrified, it's the worry of the unknown,thats why your feeling like you are. 

Your mind is probably making up clips of worst case scenarios that are like a video playing over and over again. But try not to let your mind control your fears,you are in control ,you can change your thoughts to being a bit more positive. 

Try to look at it all in a different way, 1..you are on the right path to finding out what's causing your Gallbladder mass.

2...That's a good thing,its been found and not gone undetected. 

3...worrying about it,will not change it, and it may not be anything sinister, it may be just an enflamed Gallbladder, you may have numerous gallstones, and you could have an infection ,caused by the Gallstones. 

4..what ever the problem is it can be sorted,your on the right path.

5...once you and your consultant know what is causing it,you can disscuss what needs to be done.

I had Gallbladder problems,I had a ultrasound and it showed my Gallbladder was enlarged,inflamed,because I had numerous gallstones. 

I was kept in hospital and was given antibiotics to treat the inflammation, infection.  I was then sent home and was told id need my Gallbladder taken out,and thry would send me an appointment through the post.i was given lots of information in leaflets to read at home on how they would operate etc.

I realised they intended to do keyhole surgery, but I'd had a bowel resection previously, which caused the bowel to come through my stomach wall later ,causing a hernia,.I had to have that repaired,and mesh was used to repair the hernia. I'd had that done previously in a private hospital  but as a NHS patient.So I ring the hospital consultants secretary,  to let the surgeon who was going to preform the operation know I had mesh inside of me,and to ask if they were aware of this.

I heard back ,and was told No,they were not aware of it,and the surgeon said" I cant preform this operation now,you will need to go back onto the waiting list to see a specialist consultant/surgeon  who is qualified to deal with it.

I'd allready waited a long time,so after seeing said specialist consultant/surgeon and a year later ,still waiting  I'd had no more pain and was back to eating fats dairy products etc , with no problems whatsoever with my Gallbladder,I decided I'd been through enough  with my bowel resection, and didn't want to go through another operation  as i wasn't experiencing any discomfort   so I declined on the understanding ,that if I got any more problems, and needed it done In the future it could be done. 

So you never know, it could be better outcome than you think.

But what ever the outcome, you will do and go through with  what's needed to get you back to better health.

I wish you the best of luck, worrying will only make you feel ten times worse  ,stress isn't good for you but I do understand ,once you know what your dealing with,that's the time you will deal with it,I know from experience, I went on to be diognosed with breast cancer,yes I was terrified, but I got my logical positive head screwed on,I had to otherwise I'd have driven myself crazy.  I lost my hair which I loathed but it's growing back now,I had lumpectomy, all lymph nodes removed from under my right arm,as it had spread there. I had eight rounds of chemotherapy  and 15 sessions of Radiotherapy  I'm on Letrazole for 10yrs. Then I was diognosed with vin 3...pre cancerous cells of the vulva, which im still being monitored for by gynecologist and dermatologist, my next appointment is on the 8th February 2023. 

I think you either sink or swim when you are dealt with any health issues,but I decided I'm not going to sink with worry and despair,I said to myself I'm swimming in a sea of positives.  Don't get me wrong I do worry from time to time,I'm human,but I tell myself off I tell myself I'm lucky I found all my health issues and got help to deal with them,as if I hadn't, I probably wouldn't be here now,and that I'm truly grateful for.x