Hey to anyone thats reading this. 

Im a 28 year old female, and a mum 2 lovely little boys (4 & 9 months).. Now, im. Absolutely terrified ( been up since 2.30am, now 4.30am just crying)

Ive had constant bone pain for months - first collarbone ( 6 month's ago) now ribcage, elbows and upper back, pelvis. Also feel weak in my right arm. And when I say pain, i cannot touch my bones withoit wanting to fall to the floor.

I've had a chest Xray 2 days ago ( also have a hard lump in breast i found 3 days ago over ribcage area))... 

Waiting for these results is honestly absolutely terrifiying me! I know this will sound stupid but me ans also my auntie had a convo as we were both like we sence something horrible is going to happen in year 2023 so we had to make 2022 amazing. Im honestly so scared and starting to this this feeling is actially about me.. Im scared ill be leaving my children and my children are complete mummy boys.

Im sorry for this rant i just need someone to talk to or listen to me as it seems no one does, ive been to the dr so much in the past and I get shrugged of for being young or put things down to hormones.

Ive also had a twitchy eye for month's ( i know this probably sounds random)...

I just feel like im in such a dark place at the moment,