My health has been so bad since 2020 when I developed my first breast lump. I got biopsied twice and they both came back inconclusive but the doctor was happy to discharge me. Ever since then, my health has been terrible. I've felt trapped in this body with no answer to anything.

I'm living in the UK all alone, away from my mother (my father passed from C a few years back). And I'm so terrified.

I've been developing all kinds of symptoms. My other breast (the one without the lump) started peeling intermittently. I suddenly developed terrible sciatica on my right leg, along with hip pain. And it's been there for a year. Now the pain has travelled to my upper right kidney area.. 

And on the other side of my body, I've developed a lump under my armpit. And that same arm has nerve pain too. My nails have indentations in them that I never had before.

I'm convinced my body is deteriorating from the inside. I'm in pain all the time, it's so difficult to even get out of bed. I just want to sleep until I forget that any of this is real.

I've developed such terrible health anxiety on top of all of this (can you blame me? I have too many confusing symptoms). It's SO SO scary for me to even pick up the phone to call the doctors. The wait time in the UK doesn't help with my anxiety.

I managed to pluck up the courage to call a GP a few months ago, and he gaslit me into thinking it's all in my head. I told him about the nerve issues and he told me it was my anxiety. Months later, and I'm still in so much pain. More pain, in fact. 

How do I call a doctor again? The mere thought of it makes me so terrified, I can't even put it in to words. I can't do this again for the fourth time in two years...

I am only 28 years old. I'm all alone in a country I"m not familiar with and I am so scared. 

Long story short: 'Benign' breast lump (right side), peeling breast (left side), arm nerve pain (left side), lump under armpit (left side), sciatica (right side), hip pain (right side), upper and lower back pain (right side), upper right quadra pain (right side), indentations in nails...

What is happening to me...