I have what started out to be sore tonsils about 3 months ago i kept feeling like food was getting caught on my left tonsil. Found it hard to swallow. Felt like razors in my throat. It went away for what must of been a day or two then came back as one sore tonsil, this one sore tonsil had occasional white or yellow spots on it which I presumed was tonsillitis. After going to the Dr's and even a walk in centre, they both disagreed with me in thinking it was tonsillitis at all. 

But the Dr did book me into see an ENT for an endoscopy. In which they found nothing at all , which surprised me massively.

 After a few more weeks my throat started to become even more sore , even when eating soft food and drinks and it felt like the inside of my throat down to my chest and all over my tonsils was burnt with acid, a few more days later and I was constantly swallowing what felt like sick in my mouth. I was given gerd tablets and they sort of worked with the acid type feeling in my throat  but my tonsil remaind very sore, was given anti fungal tablets which didn't do anything at all. 

My spots came back on my tonsil and I felt hot and achey like the flu. I was given antibiotics and I felt okay again and the spots went.., other then my tonsil and my throat. Which feels like every time I swallow its stinging and there's some sort of lump in my jaw and over exaggerating my swallowing. I've booked a private ent consultant with my birthday money this month just so I can know and maybe be alive for my childrens  birthdays this year, just so i can find out before I fall apart from mental health instead. 

My neck hurts occasionally when I turn it and honestly,  my anxiety has been through the roof this whole time. For 3 months I haven't been eating right as its painful, I'm exhausted with worry, I've been crap at parenting , crap at planning, crap at being in my relationship. It's ruined my mental health. I went to Dr google and I can have such a thin layer of normality before I break out in panic. 

Has anyone had anything similar? 

I haven't felt so alone and rubbish and I'm panicking for my kids and partner who would be motherless and alone. I meant to be getting married in August and I can't even try to plan as in my head I believe I won't even be alive for. 

Sorry for the long message. But thankyou to just put it out there