Hi, I'm josie :) 29 and scared to death,

I have 2 children one is almost 17 months and one is 14 weeks, after my first I went for my first smear test (December 2021) and had the result of HPV positive and abnormal cells in January, I also found out I was pregnant again in the January, had two colposcopies during the pregnancy to keep an eye on things, the colposcopist said it looked precancerous but put on my notes low grade, then 8 weeks post partum I went for a biopsy (they did two) it was a different colposcopist and she was just going to refer me back to smear after looking at my notes (I pushed for them to do the colposcopy anyway) this was on November the 15th and I still haven't had my results back, Im having leg pain, pelvic pain, spotting after sex, alot more watery discharge(no odor) and back pain and my cervix feels alot lower and lumpier than it used to but I don't know if that's just from having children? 

Anybody been through similar? I'm genuinely scared of the post man at this point

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