I've got an MRI on 23rd December, afternoon appointment . I had ultrasound, hysteroscopy, MRI and CT scans back in July with benign looking ovarian cysts, fibroids and a thickened womb lining being found - ultrasound to be repeated in Jan to check on cysts and further womb biospy. However, cancer tumour markers are elvevated and have risen further in two subsequent blood tests so I am now being sent on the 2 week referral for the MRI for pancreas and I'm absolutely terrified. Its not helped by the fact that my best friend died of pancreatic cancer.

Coping ideas - my husband keeps reminding me that its a waste of energy to worry until I know if there is something to worry about and encouraging me to keep busy and concentrate on having a good Christmas. So I would say concentrate on your young children - keep their Christmas magical, keep yourself busy.

But my thoughts will be with you on the 23rd and I really hope that all works out well for you

Wishing you all the best         a year ago dec 6th I had my lumpectomy so I had to wait till after Christmas to see if they got it all.  Very worrying time x

Hi 

Wishing you all the best to - I have a second Haematologist appointment on the 22nd December for some blood test results after my red platelets are high , really not sure on the cause but I've had some many blood tests I've lost count .

My mind runs away with me at times but I'm trying not to worry until I know more news x

I feel for you, especially at this time of year. 
Is there a good possibility that your test results come back clear though? 
This is my wish for you, a Xmas wish if you like. 

On a different note, on 22nd December 2020, I went into hospital for what turned out to be a 12-hour operation. 

I spent the following two days in ICU. I won't bore you with the details. 

HOWEVER, I reframed it all in my mind & stated it was the BEST Xmas present EVER! 

The gift of life. 

Without it I wouldn't be here today, that's for certain. 

The good news (for you) is that they are on top of things for you & hopefully you'll get the all-clear soon. 

Try & enjoy your Festive Season regardless. 

Best wishes to you at this time. 

Thank you all so much for your kind replies. I wish none of us had to go through this but it's strangely comforting to know I'm not alone. 
It has been a long hard year for me, starting with raised CA125, ultrasound, colposcopy and hysteroscopy. Then just as that was over, I found breast dimples. I had mammo and ultrasound and biopsy which were clear, but due to the severity of the dimples, the breast doctor kept me on frequent (manual/visual) reviews. Now I've found a new, large indentation that is only visible when lying down. So my breast doctor has brought forward my next review to the 23rd dec. I think I'd rather just bury my head in the sand and have a nice Xmas, I can't believe they've given that date!

I wish you inner peace & great health, Leni56. 

I was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer just over two years ago & I'm still here to type this up. 
Steve Jobs also had it & lived for years after. 
 - & you know what, you might not have it...
I was really quite ill at the time of my diagnosis. 
It maybe that they're just wanting to rule out anything on your pancreas. 

Happy Xmas & keep the faith. :) 

thank you so much for your message and your positivty. It is really good to hear that you are still with us. Nothing was found on my CT scan in July so I'm trying to be hopeful. I don't think you will realise how much comfort your words have given me -my best friend died 2 weeks after diagnosis. I'm glad you got your gift of life two Christmasses ago and I hope you have many more ahead of you. Thank you again

Hey, I'm quite young and I've had too many appointments now to count and have another one just after Christmas. They have ruled out so many things it could be that really the only one left is cancer.

My biggest concern if it is, is how will it affect my partner. He already cares for me as im disabled and then this on top has caused him a lot of worry.

I honestly don't know how I feel about it because I've been worrying about everyone else. How do I figure out how I feel.

Hi, me too and it is so hard to feel Christmas cheer when you have appointments looming. My cancer markers were raised and I had a scan last week which resulted in the discovery of a cyst on my ovary. Waiting for follow up with the doc and referral to gynae for more scans on Monday... it is the not knowing that is breaking me. 
I was also tempted to delay the appointment but I think the worrying of what it might be is almost worse and I want to know before Christmas so at least, in my head, I can start to put a plan together. 
I am Trying to take one day at a time, maybe you could think about something Christmassy to do with your children each day, make mince pies, watch a Christmas movie, put edible glitter into porridge oats and make yummy reindeer food or go out on a welly walk ? ( I'm a primary teacher and know how much the children enjoying doing these things) these will feed the excitement in them but not be so overwhelming tricky that you need to be on top form to do them.  
I will be thinking of you on the 23rd xx