Hi Jo, you are not crazy at all! The waiting is the absolute worst part of all of this. I am also waiting for confirmation as to whether the biopsies taken are cancerous or not and I can't seem to think of anything else. A bit difficult with the cold weather at the moment, however being outside in the fresh air really helps me. I also try and break down each step of this whole process and take control of the situation as much as you can. I'd also use this forum for support too and constantly remind yourself that how you are feeling is completely valid! 

Thank you for replying io123, it's paralysing, I am shaky, feeling sick etc all nerves, I know it is. I cannot help but focus on the worst too, it's awful, a week ago I was wandering around with a chest infection but didn't feel too bad and since hearing I am guessing my chest isn't particularly any worse but the panic is making it so, I am in this viscious cycle of trying to catch my breath but knowing it is panic and then the inability to catch it making me panic. Ha! It's manically laughable really! If I could just calm down, my breathing would regulate and I wouldn't be so worried.

Equally, I want to live, I have to, I have two little people and so much left to do but my brain keeps preparing for the worst, I am trying to focus on fighting but I keep preparing for the opposite, it is driving me nuts! I'm sorry, voicing all this is probably not helping you much usually I am a very positive and helpful person, I am always trying to help people feel good about themselves and I help where I can, when I can. I love the outdoors too but was worried the cold may effect it, it's minus 6 here in Herefordshire. Whereabouts are you?

Hi, 

Didnt wanna read and run! I'm the same and actually have been under so much stress since I was placed on the 2 week wait. 

I'm in a daze, drained, worried and just waiting for biopsy results! Urgh! I've no idea what's going to happen but I've 3 boys who need me so I have to absolutely get stronger and fight this! I think the wait is what sends us crazy! Sending tons of love god knows we need it right now xx

Hi, I was already drained beforehand as we have had covid twice since November 2021 and then in September 2022, so I just thought it was covid as we have been poorly since but things haven't been right and now I am terrified really, how old are your boys? I am just scared for them and just feel so sorry. Love and hugs back at you, it is just so scary isn't it.xxxx

Ahhh I have been the same just not myself for a while, been ongoing from summer with regular bloods, got a few issues and now crippled with anexity. Charming! 

My boys are 17,8 and 7 luckily I was blessed with an amazing husband, who honestly has held me together whilst I'm trying to process this. And in the middle of it all got an urgent referral to from eye test so really feeling I'm falling apart ha ha! The wait I'm sure is the worse! But I'm just so sad 4 my babies who need me and right now my mind is everywhere. Especially so close to xmas it's tough. 

Xx

Yes any spoiling I imagined I wouldn't do has been written off they are going to be totally spoilt this year! Just in case.xx