Thank you so much for reasuring me! 

It's been around 5 days now, I haven't seen a Doctor yet. I know my Health comes first but I have been working so much recently I haven't had the time. I know I should go, or should have gone, and I will go eventually, I just get really scared and frightened. I feel really sick. 
It's really painful and irritating me still, I'm not saying it is Cancer but if it was, I don't know if Cancer starts painful or can be painful at all?... I have no idea. 
But I keep looking at it, and it's like little dots of skin sticking out that are painful in that area. I'm not sure how to explain it, the best way I can explain it is, you know when you burn your mouth and you get those painful sore inflamed taste buds, it's like those in my nose in one patch on a hard bump... But it's still hard to see whether the bump is what is it like under my skin, or whether it's the small bits of skin sticking up/out that are causing me the pain. It's just really odd, and I feel super sick with worry, this is my problem, I feel super sick with worry but too scared to even go to the Doctors because I am more worried about the outcome of him saying I'm sorry you've got Cancer or something... :( 
 

It even gets to the stage where I'll save up money or think about getting life insurance or weird feelings like excepting my death before even knowing I have anything wrong.

Please don't judge me or think I'm crazy for doing that, but I genuinely that's how I feel and it's what I think like all of the time. Sounds really stupid probably. Like preparing or thinking about preparing... I mean how silly does that sound. It sounds so ridiculous. I'm only 26 and it's taking over my life! 

I'm really sorry for ranting on, over here... I just really need someone to talk to right now. 
I talk to my friends and partner and family sometimes about these things, but get worried that I annoy people too much constantly going on and on and on about thing's like this, when I genuinely cannot even help it! :sad: 

Then because I feel like I can't talk about it, it eats me up keeping it inside even worse with anxierty and worry. I know my Partner gets fed up with me... always telling me to stop going on. I feel like I am pushing him away from me, and it hurts. 

Nobody but myself knows I have an account on here and chats on this Website, scared people will think I am crazy for taking it this far and coming here to chat, even though I do it to feel reassured and to feel helped. ( : 

Thank you for listening to me! x 

Hi,can't sleep so just popped on here and read your reply to me. Your definitely not crazy, having anxiety as bad as you do isn't easy to cope with ,as when you get a health issues anywhere on your body,you just go into over thinking mode ,and although you can't help it,it is just a viscous circle and you continue to go round and round with more worry. 

Have you tried writing a journal just for yourself. You could write a  few columns,   headed colums like my worries and fears of the day, and in another Column write down how it's making you feel ,and in another  column how you can try to overcome these things of your feelings of anxiety.

Things in anotger column could be  what am.i doing to help myself overcome these fears....you can write down what you  are doing  what your not doing, and need to do, such as pluck up the courage to call your doctors,even if its to talk to the doctor over the phone.  Try to go a few hrs with out thinking of your health issues some days, set a target  of hiow long you think you can go without worrying ,see if you can, and if you do it put it down as a positive ,you can include a positive column of positive  things you've done like this,or include any positive thoughts you've had each day. By doing something for yourself like this,you can look back on each day,and see if you've achieved the things you would like to achieve ...ie like  calling the doctor, speaking to them about your anxiety and health issues ,and see if you can make an Appointment, or write down any think that your thinking about your health issues ,read it back  digest it all,and maybe you will see in time that your thoughts, are turning into anxiety and worries and thats what's taking over you,and making your anxiety and worries get out of control. Try thinking I will be in control of the way my mind works,not the other way around... which is at tge moment, my mind is in control of me,thinkt it's s only me that can change that. I know It won't be easy,but instead of talking about it to your boyfriend and everyone else,and feeling like your pushing them away by doing this writing in your journal ,writing these kind of things like your thoughts and how you feel each day ,what your doing or not doing  each day to help yourself , it may infact  help you , and also solve that one problem of feeling your talking about it and getting on everyone's nerves, as you said you feel like  you're pushing them away.  This will be your private  journal ,your space to write things down each day and you can see when you look at it,how things are,if you've coped better on one day, or week also from other days or weeks, you can look at what you've written in your journal and see what's helped you feel better on some days ,or weeks. Or what's made you feel worse if that's the case.  This is just an idea going forward ,as it may help you ,  you won't know untill you try.  I did this once before with different situations in life,and it helped me. But I'm not judging you at all,if you don't feel this will be of any benefit to you,I understand were all differnt . Its just I hate to think of you feeling so worried that you can't even bring yourself to get checked out ,as this is the only way that you would know if its really anything to worry about. I do hope this helps if you give it a go,but my best advice is still to see your doctor.  Xxx