Hello guys,

I know this is not a place to get a diagnosis but I'm very scared and don't really have anyone to talk to. 
 

So around 4-5 years ago I noticed I had lumps in my neck. I have one on each side of my main neck, they are pea sized and can't be felt unless you do a bit deep, they are hard but movable. I have one big one at the back right hand side of my neck which feels more like the size of a small grape, this can be felt by just running my finger over if I turn my neck.

Im 24 so back when I was 18-19 I remember feeling these and becoming obsessed. From what I remember I did mention this the my GP a few times but nothing ever came of it so I just repressed the obsession and basically forgot about them. 
Over the years I have had quite a few medical investigations such as various scans (HEAD MRI, CHEST CT) and various blood tests, including a thourough one recently. Everything has always come back fine. In the past year I have have had some constant symptoms like fatigue and feeling dizzy and off balance but again nothing serious has come up.
So a few days ago I felt them again and have become obsessed again. After messing with the big one at the back it has become tender and I don't know what that means. I have read that low-grade lymphomas can last for years before they turn aggressive. I'm so scared that becaus I was young and dumb I missed the opportunity of catching this early and now I'm going to pay the price. I can't find anything that says that you can just have hard lumps/nodes in your neck for years without it being something serious. I'm going to try and talk to a doctor soon but I'm just so so anxious, it's hard to think about anything else.

thankyou if you read this. 
(Sorry for the vent)