Hi there,

I just needed somewhere to let out some steam! 3 weeks ago, I noticed a 'dent' in my left breast. Got referred to the breast clinic where I received multiple mammograms, ultrasound and 3 biopsies. I then was copied into a letter to my GP which said..

Bilateral mammogram reported M5 in the left side. On the ultrasound, lower half there were 3 malignant looking lesions. Normal lymph node. It went on to say that I would be sent for a contrast enhanced mammogram, which was booked for tomorrow. This morning, they called me to cancel and said they had decided after discussing my case that an MRI would be better. This is when I had my first meltdown over all of it as I was kind of hoping that tomorrow I would have some answers. 

I am 41 year old, mother to 2 (17 & 9). A year and a half ago serperated from my ex, we have just sold our house and I have purchased a new one where life insurance is mandatory in the terms of the mortgage. All this is due to complete before Christmas, likely end of November.

So not only am I panicking about almost definately having cancer, but also now, maybe having to pull out of my house as a brief check has shown I may not be able to get life insurance for a while. I realise all of this will be more certain when I have actual answers, but the language used in the letter has terrified me, together with the house situation has me so stressed out. 

Thanks for reading (if anyone made it this far) any tales of hope would be greatly received right now!