Hi everyone,
I have had an atypical mole on my back since childhood, it's always been odd looking, flat with 2 different colours, quite pale and no real border to it. I took a picture of my back in 2019 with the intention of regularly checking my moles given I'm fair skinned, blonde hair and I have lots of moles. Since then I've had twins. I noticed yesterday that this mole has darkened and now has a pronounced border where it didn't before. I have read that pregnancy can cause moles to darken so I'm hoping it's that...
I went to the GP today and she was awful, just a terrible way to deal with patients. Firstly she didn't even look up from her computer as I came in the room. She was completely in reassuring about the mole and agreed it looked sinister, and told me I should be worried. I said that I was worried as I wasn't quite sure how long it had looked like that (i should monitor my skin more frequently than i do and massively regretting it now) and her reply was yes, you should be worried. What a thing to say!! She gave me no words of encouragement just that she'd put the referral in and it's a 3 week wait. I can't believe how matter of fact she was.
Because of her response I've now convinced myself it must be melanoma. I've found myself endlessly googling, I have three young children and I'm terrified. What's making me feel worse is that I can't be sure exactly when it started darkening and I have no idea how fast or slow it spreads, if it is the worst. I feel like it's looked this way for a while but I have no idea why it's only been yesterday that I realised it was different to how it used to be. Really hoping it's just a pregnancy related change.
The plus size is that it hasn't increased in size, it isn't sore, bleeding, crusty, oozing or anything like that. I'm not sure if melanomas always grow outwards in size or whether they just grow downwards into the skin.
Ugh I'm so scared and the waiting is the worst.
Not quite sure what the point of this post is, just looking for some words of encouragement I guess x