Good afternoon. Sorry this may be a long story. 
 

So may this year my dad had some blood tests as he was having some bad symptoms that truthfully I think he kept hidden from us. Beginning of June he went into hospital due to his bloods and symptoms. Sadly passed july from pancreatic cancer 2 weeks after diagnosis. 
 

August I ask my docotor to do my bloods as I was just generally anxious. I suffer from absolutely major anxieties and panic attacks. I'm 23. So I went for random bloods the first CBC of my life. 
 

I get a call a week or so later to repeat I ask why and they said they suspect possibly slight anemia but they have no concerns it's just a check so I'm not overly worried.

A month later I go back for my retest to be told it wasn't that it was the fact I had slightly low neutrophils. They repeat my bloods and again they are low so say they will refer me to the heamatologist but again they have absolutely no concerns it's just to check what they think. They take bloods to check more things such as autoimmune etc and it's all clear. 
 

I am a mess I will openly admit I am an absolute mess. I have a small lump on the back of my neck around 3mm. The doctor felt it said it's fine I've got to have had it around 9 years now it's never changed. 
 

with so much anxieties and Google reading etc I've been prodding and poking my neck like no tomorrow and feel like I've found 2 small lumps near my left collar bone. I have to move my arm up to feel them but I can feel something I have to dig quite deep but I know they can be deep. It's been around 5 weeks and I've heard nothing just wondering if anyone could advice or reassure me. 
 

I have no symptoms other then I'm a bit tired as of recently but I take that is my stress but it doesn't stop me doing anything. 
 

sorry for the long message.