Hi there,

Oh I TOTALLY relate to this! I have anxiety anyway as well, and I found a lump early September. I waited on the 2 week pathway and have now had a mammogram, ultrasound and they needed to do a biopsy too. They said they think it's a Fibroadenoma which is not cancer, but wanted to do the biopsy to make sure. 

I cried in the consultant's room, explained about how bad my anxiety was, and she said in that case she'll follow me up with a face to face appointment. So now I'm reading in to that thinking it'll be bad news! The appt is on Monday...

I'm so sorry you are experiencing those awful anxiety symptoms. I know exactly what you mean, waking up in the morning my tummy is in knots and I feel so can't get out of bed. It's exhausting. I tell myself rationally to get a grip, but honestly when you have bad anxiety it really is not as simple as that. I can't stop thinking about it, feel very very tense and lost my appetite as a result. Everything seems overwhelming.

So, a few tips though... Don't be hard on yourself. I think you have a right to feel how you feel, and not have to beat yourself up about it on top. Practically, I have found getting out each day for a walk has really helped. I'm blessed to be in countryside, but anywhere such as a park etc is good, because you walk off the tension and seeing nature kind of helps shift your focus. Plus increased oxygen seems useful!!! 

I also crochet! I know that's not everyone's thing, but apparently doing a craft or something with repetitive movements helps calm the mind and releases serotonin, which can help with anxiety. Try some adult colouring books. The crochet really does calm me and I feel I have a sense of control over something at least. 

Definitely talk to friends and family if you can. 

Finally, listening to some relaxing music or sounds of the sea or rain can help as you drift off to sleep. I personally find praying very comforting too. 

I hope all goes well for you, you will get through, I promise. You're definitely not alone in how you feel. 

Xx