Hi, I'm here because I'm terrified. I have been through a lot of crap but this is definitely the scariest. Back in November i had the 3rd Covid dose in my left arm which caused lymph node pain and swelling. Then the pain went away and I forgot about it. About 2 weeks ago coming back from a trip I hit my left arm and bruised it. When I touched it I felt the lymph node. Small and movable and it's really deep in, if i lift the arm I can't feel it. I freaked out. Felt nothing in my left breast at all. Right side is all good. My grandma on my father's side had breast cancer.
Two days ago I did a private ultrasound and this was the report:
Bilateral there is no ultrasound evidence of solid breast lesions. Two small, simple left breast cysts noted at 2 OC position, 5 CM FN measuring 6x4 mm and 5x4 mm.
Mild fibro dense breast tissue changes demonstrated.
The axillary lymph nodes appear normal, the largest on the right measuring 19x6 mm and on the left 13x6 mm.
No suspicious features.
No evidence of left axilla focal lesions, solid or cystic.
Went to the GP today and she felt my breast and found nothing and then she couldn't even find the lymph node I had to guide it. When she found it she said "but it's small". Then the panic started because she said: I'm going to refer you to the breast clinic not because I think you have cancer but because they may want to do something about the cysts". I asked again later and she said she doesn't think it's cancer and yet I got the 2 weeks referral. Then she almost backtracked and said we can wait 3 weeks and if you feel it's getting worse we can do the referral to which I said let's just do the referral now then. She basically said in the end that she thinks they will do nothing but it's the consultant who has to have the final word on the cysts.
I am now in utter panic. I'm alone, I have nobody no husband nothing. I'm 37 almost 38, could be gone tomorrow no one would even know. I keep thinking maybe it's not the cysts maybe there's something else. I'm crying and panicked and I don't know how to handle it. I've been left alone. I can tell you one thing though: if I survive I'll turn my whole life around.
i just don't understand what is happening and I'm just scared really scared
