So after two and a half months of stress and worry, today is the day I finally get some answers... after being referred to both the breast clinic and the sarcoma unit, both are giving me some answers today.

Due to the sarcoma unit being in London and my appointment early in the morning, I travelled up yesterday and am staying in some dodgy services hotel by myself, staring at the ceiling wondering what today will bring. I have the appointment first thing this morning which will give me my MRI results, and I'm already suspicious after receiving a letter telling me which consultant I will be under for the duration of my care. Then this afternoon, the breast clinic are giving me a telephone call after pushing my appointment forward by a week to give me my biopsy results of the lump.

I don't even know why I posted this, really. My friends and family couldn't come with me even though they wanted to, so I'm facing this alone and I just wanted someone to hear me, really. My parents are looking after my two little boys and all I can think about is how on earth can this happen to somebody who has two precious lives to care for... I know it seems like I've jumped the gun regarding the diagnosis but when you've felt as unwell as I have, fatigued and nauseous every day, it seems like the most obvious answer.

I hope everyone else is doing okay with their treatments and waiting for results. Good luck to you all xxx