Hi there , I am just looking to chat about my fears. I'm ashamed to say I haven't had a smear in 9 years due to trauma. I finally bit the bullet last month and went for my smear was shaking the whole time .. first attempt and the nurse said oh I can't find your cervix which added to the anxiety.. cue two more attempts and still being told this she had to stop as I was sobbing and shaking with a panic attack . Anyhow my next attempt is next Thursday. I just want it over with .. issue is I suffer from major health anxiety ( I have self diagnosed myself many times and end up a wreck thinking I am dying sounds mad but have been told it's my anxiety) I am petrified of the results and every twinge or ache in my body am convinced I will get bad news... I must sound mad but it's affecting my life badly and I am so scared.. thanku for listening x