Hi, I absolutely know how your feeling it is frightening when you feel a lump. You definitely do need to phone the doctors in the morning even if it turns out to be nothing it will put your mind at ease.

Hope everything goes well for you, Good luck and best wishes 

Thank you for replying. 
I've made it sore now and it's swollen a bit as I keep prodding and poking it about. 
Im googling everything I can and I know it's not helping but I can't help it I feel like I need to know what I'm going into? 
i just have a bad feeling about it all!!! 
 

Thank you, he couldn't see any lump, or marks or anything like that and said the lump moved about but all lumps are different x

I feel absolutely terrified tonight I've read so many stories and watched so many videos about women having cancer that they was told was "nothing to worry about" 

I don't know how I'm going to endure the 2ww to see the breast clinic I can't eat sleep focus all I keep doing is googling and touching the lump 

Hi scared to sleep , try not to worry , if you could book a private clinic they do a mammogram , if anything is on the mammogram they do biopsy and ultrasound straight away my first appointment was 40 mins they done all that and they told me it was suspicious within that time I had to them wait only one week after for biopsy results so that's pretty quick . If that could stop you worrying it maybe worth going private for that part , if anything is found tgey can transfer you back to nhs but hopefully it isn't anything but would stop you having to wait good luck xx 

Hi, I recently had a similar scare. Moveable lumps in both boobs AND a thickened area. GP couldnt feel it but referred to breast clinic anyway. Dr felt it straight away and referred to ultrasound. Turned out to be cysts and dense breast tissue. You probably know that 9/10 trips to the breast clinic do not result in a cancer diagnosis. I'm in my thirties with two kids too. When I was feeling very anxious I reminded myself that breast cancer is treatable in most cases and that I would cope with any outcome. And the truth is- you would. The waiting is the worst bit. You must spend time with peopl and distract yourself with tasks you like to do. It will be OK. Xxx

Thank you for replying, There isn't any private clinics where I live and I don't think we'd be able to afford it anyway what with things the way they are. 

Thank you for replying. 
Ive read so much about radiographers saying they are cysts and then they turn out to be cancer, I just don't know how I would cope. What if I haven't ever noticed it and they say sorry it's terminal and I have to tell my kids I'm dying! 
My kids wont cope they're teenage girls how will they manage without a mum i just can't stop worrying! 
 

I probably sound self absorbed and like I'm being stupid but I am genuinely utterly terrified for my life. I can not shake this feeling that it's cancer. I watched a video today of a woman with a lump just like mine, was fobbed off at the Gp as a cyst, told no lymph nodes were swollen and was sent to the clinic to shut her up. Ultra sound showed a mass, numourous lymph nodes were found that it had spread to and she ended up being stage 4 cancer and is leaving a family behind. 
even women on here have written that they've been told fibroadenoma and the no sorry it's cancer. 
i have health anxiety anyway but this is another level of panic, it's consuming my actual life 24/7 

Hi scarredtosleep, I can imagine you are feeling utterly terrified but I dont think your helping by looking at things online like that. You need to stay positive, I know its easier said than done but it could turn out to be nothing serious. When I was waiting for my results and appointments for breast clinic I just looked on here and found it helped rather than look at other things about cancer on Google. The waiting is the worse bit tbh so I know exactly how your feeling. 

Please stay positive

Best wishes and thinking of you xx

Try not to worry , keep busy and hopefully all will be good for you xxx good luck xx 

I know I'm not helping but I don't know what else to do. I feel like I now have 3 lumps not 1! I've read about sarcoma that attaches to tissue, could it be that? It's so painful today I've had to take pain relief and inthink that breast is bigger than the other now too. Shall I ring breast clinic and say I think there's 3 lumps now not 1 and it's a different size? 
yes it is the waiting and no one in real life is helping they just say don't worry it's probably nothing not all lumps are cancer and it isn't helping at all!! 
 

I know I'm not helping but I don't know what else to do. I feel like I now have 3 lumps not 1! I've read about sarcoma that attaches to tissue, could it be that? It's so painful today I've had to take pain relief and inthink that breast is bigger than the other now too. Shall I ring breast clinic and say I think there's 3 lumps now not 1 and it's a different size? 
yes it is the waiting and no one in real life is helping they just say don't worry it's probably nothing not all lumps are cancer and it isn't helping at all!! 
 

Hi, it might be bigger now especially if your prodding and poking it. If it's painful then perhaps take pain relief. You could try to phone the breast clinic but I dont know if it would help tbh. I really do feel for you. We have all been thro the waiting period and it is worrying for us all. I really know where your coming from when people tell you don't worry, it's natural to be worried. I found chatting on here helps a lot when I'm feeling worried, down,or even upset. 

Good luck and just take one day at a time xx

Hi, Stay off Google, it doesn't help it heightens your anxiety. The feeling of not knowing is the worst, your mind will go into overdrive. You have to think of it this way, if you didn't go to the GP or find the lump then that would be worse, although it's scary your doing the right thing and the hospital will look after you. 
Don't jump ahead, it could be a cyst. Boobs are so complex. I'm 38 with two sons. I do know how you feel. Mine was Cancer, but I caught it early and I'm on the other side now and doing well., Take deap breaths stay to the light. Xx

I read that cysts look RADICALLY different to cancer on an ultrasound and are therefore very easy to diagnose. But the problem here is your anxiety (I have health anxiety too).. please do not research this any more. There is no value in that. Accept that right now, you do not know what these lumps are, and trust that the professionals have the tools to find out. You are not qualified to diagnose yourself. Also remind yourself regularly of the facts- most breast lumps are benign. Most importantly, STOP TOUCHING THEM. You are prolonging the anxiety cycle. Every time you touch them, you're inviting more intrusive thoughts. 
good luck with your scan and try and put your energy into managing your anxiety rather than trying to diagnose yourself xx

I feel that I can't get past this, every thought of every waking minute is do I have cancer I have cancer I know I do stop being ridiculous you don't know anything it's a cyst but what if it isn't we won't be able to go on holiday in October I'll ruin everything i can't book anything I can't get excited about anything my first thought when the queen died was well what if it's me next. 
 

i can't help it I look at my kids and think I need to plan for their birthdays like cards etc xmases leave notes for my partner so he knows what to do. 
I don't know how to manage this anxiety it has taken over me like something else. I've never ever been like this before even when I had an abnormal smear this is next level I think because I know deep down this is going to be it for me. 

I've stopped prodding it now yt doesn't hurt which I'm worried about. And I don't know if it's grown? And my shoulder hurts I've read about referred pain in breast cancer? 

I'm really sorry to see how much of an impact your anxiety is having at the moment Scaredtosleep99.

When anxiety feels constant or overwhelming it can be very difficult to manage. If you feel like your anxiety has got to that point, please let your GP know as they will be able to help and possibly provide you with something that will help calm you and get this under control.

I hope the posts you've been receiving from the community have been helping as well but if you feel you need further support and advice do be sure to have a look at the tips given on the NHS Every Mind Matters website and the resources provided on Anxiety UK.

We're thinking of you ScaredtoSleep99 and hope everything will be o.k.

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Thank you, you probably think I sound like an utter nutter i promise you I'm not! I don't know where this has come from i have health anxiety but never anything like this. I'm usually a rational person but this I don't know it's just taken over my life since Sunday when I found the lump. I phoned the breast clinic and told them about my anxiety and worries and she said basically you'll have to wait which is fine but she said if it's bad news it won't make a difference anyway! I said what have I said to make you think it'll be bad news!!  She said its nothing they can do it'll be looked at and assessed Monday and go from there but she really made me panic, will the GP have told them anything on the referral letter like a heads up oh I think this or I think that? 
 

My stomach is in knots I've just had another feel and I'm sure there's more lumps 

Hi scaredtosleep,

I've just been reading your posts and I feel exactly like you. I have health anxiety since losing a close family member and at the min, I am beyound terrified. 
I can't sleep, eat, I cry all day and feel sick. How the heck I am going to get through work tomorrow, I have absolutely no idea. I'm desperate even for a couple of hours sleep. I literally had about an hours sleep since Friday and I lay awake thinking the worst and putting my family through another loss and grief. 
my app at the breast clinic is on rhe 15th what about yours? I have a lump, as well as swelling  and pain under arm pit and I am expecting the worst. This is my second lump and got good news with the first. Also this is 5 scare which involves a 2 week referral to rule Out cancer, in 2 years. I got good news on all 5 and feel like l luck will run out. I just feel physically ill waiting for news/appointments and it's taking over my life. I just wanted to share how I felt to let you know you are not alone. Sending love x

Hi

I just wanted to say you are not alone in feeling so anxious. It's so overwhelming isn't it!

My situation is a bit different.- I was treated for breast cancer 8 years ago and have had 5 clear mammograms since then. I had my last mammogram  on Tuesday, and as it's the first one for 3 years I have convinced myself this time that the cancer has returned ( I was told I had quite a high ridk of recurrence).

I can identify so much with not being able to plan anything, and I find myself waking up in a state of panic at 3am every morning.. The thought of bring recalled terrifies me, and I panic every time the post arrives! I was told results should arrive within 2 weeks but getting through each day is such a struggle. I think it's the not knowing that is the worst part!

I do hope everything works out for you. I probably haven't been much help,  but just wanted to say I understand exactly how you feel and to wish you luck.

Jxx