Im not really sure why I am writing on here? Maybe to just air my fears? For support? Reassurance? I don't know. 

I have been having blood in every bowel movement for the last 5 weeks. After a couple of weeks I passed what looked like a clot seperate from my stool. I decided it was time to see the gp. After examination he said he could feel no lumps and there was no obvious signs of anything but said it was more than likely hemaroids and prescribed me a cream. I knew in my heart it wasn't hemaroids, I had no pain, no lumps or bumps and like I said blood was in/on stool, not when wiping.

I went back to gp just over a week later and she straight away got me booked in for blood test, stool sample and FIT test.

Stool sample from local hospital came back normal. Fit test came back positive and bloods show raised inflammatory markers. I actually got these results yesterday via text message from my GP as she is not at work until Tuesday (so I'm thinking if she's txt me on her day off, this is serious)

She also said she has put a referral request for an urgent colonoscopy. I should apparently hear from the hospital by the 6th of September for an appointment booking.

I am only 34 and I have 3 young children aged 6,4 and 2 who are my absolute world and I just can't switch off that I possibly could have Colon cancer. I am so down and I'm finding it hard to concentrate or go about my daily life. 

My only symptoms are blood in/on EVERY stool, raised inflammatory markers and I know my iron levels are too.

I can't see passed it being anything other than cancer. 

I'm so sorry for the long post, I just needed to get it out. Xx