Hi all, just need somewhere to let off a bit of steam and let all my worries out! I was diagnosed with triple-negative breast cancer last June at the age of 31, had chemotherapy, a lumpectomy and radiotherapy, and was given the all-clear this March. I've just discovered a hard, really smooth, pea-sized lump in the other breast, close to the nipple, and now I'm so worried. I plan to ring the BCN on Tuesday (although I'll give it a go on Monday, not sure if they're open for bank holidays), and hopefully get myself an appointment, but I've just been praying and praying that I wouldn't find any more lumps. I am really prone to cysts; I've already had one in the cancer-affected breast this May (which was drained), and I had about 4-5 in my 20s, before the cancer diagnosis, so I'm hoping this is just another cyst. But the May cyst was a big enough worry, now I have another one to fret about! I sometimes think it would be so much easier if I just had a double mastectomy, and then at least I wouldn't have the cyst problems.
I'm sorry this post is one big rant; I'm just so tired of always being worried the cancer will return. I have this terror in the back of my mind that it will one day see me off, and as I say, it's very tiring, carrying this worry all the time, as well as the endless cysts.