... it started 5 weeks ago when my partner felt unwell ..

tiered , cough , pain like stitch left side and what he describes as a horrible taste coming up from

his lung as he coughs ..

Dr , chest X-ray ,bloods - call investigation - ct scan ...

the long long sience - called to

our GP - his words " it's not good news 7cm tumour on the back

of left lung .,,  off we go

we are scared , angry , numb , crying , not sleeping ..

me I lost my first partner to MND and now this ...

we have a face to face appointment schedular for the 1st September .., seems a life time away

im 65 15th September - family holiday planned flying on the 6th ...

will we go?

what do we tell people going with us ?

hiw do I remain posative and strong ?

I have read DR Google , my partner hasn't - and I am trying my best to not guess till the facts are given ...

I feel so out of control with my world right now and I have found Steven late in

life , and we are so happy , so many plans ...

And now ....

I wish they would call Cancer another name - the name is so connected to the end , treatment and a journey I body would choose ...

I just need to be told it's treatable - im

not greedy and my life with Steve will have the laughter and love we crave ...