I think it's totally normal to feel scared....especially when you have had cancer previously. I had cervical cancer back in 2016. It was a shock when i was diagnosed as my smear 6 months before was clear. Also cancer is what happens to other people right? Not me.

Although i was successfully treated, that fear never leaves you I don't think because you know it can and does happen to people like us. I am currently waiting on breast biopsy results and have resigned myself to bad news. Just imagine if it's not bad news though, statistically the odds are in our favour. When i feel myself thinking those dark thoughts, i say very loudly to myself "NO!" as a bit of a head wobble to think more positively.

I read somewhere - Until you are actually told it's cancer, you don't have cancer - I repeat that to myself throughout the day.

Hope you're ok. Sorry i've rambled. I guess i am saying i know exactly how you feel xxx