I have health anxiety and im worried about cancer

Hi,

I am a 19 year old female who deals with bad health anxiety. Every pain or ache i get, i have to run it by my friends and family and if they dont relate, i am straight on google, looking at my symptoms and what they could mean. At the moment i am fearful of Leukemia, as i do have a few symptoms. Now i had a few blood tests done at the end of May and they all come back completely fine which has calmed me a bit, but thats not stopped me from worrying. At the moment the symptoms i get are just like aches in my arms and legs which i would describe as "growing pains" as i can remember those from being a child, no one i speak to can relate apart from my boyfriend who is always active so hes obviosly going to be aching. whereas my lifestyle is more chill as i work in an office and i currently do no sports.

Every symptom i get really concerns me even after i speak to a doctor. I am absolutley terrified of getting cancer or just being ill in general and its effecting my day to day life. im 19 i should be enjoying myself but instead, even when i am around friends i just dont feel as bright as i normally do because of this whole health anxiety thing.

I would like to see other peoples prespectives on my problem and how similar people deal with these things.

Thank you for your time :) 

  • Hiya.  I have a cousin who spent her whole life convinced that she was dying from one thing or another.  She is now 81 and is still constantly running to the Doctors and hospitals demanding tests for her imaginary illnesses.  I am not disrespecting you, but what you need is counselling to try to get to the root of why you have health anxiety issues.  Presumably you don't want to lead the life that my cousin has led do you?  Speak to your GP and ask if you can be recommended for some type of therapy, because this issue isn't about physical illness, this is about mental health issues, and again, please don't be offended because I know exactly what it feels like to have mental health problems, anyway I wish you well, Violet, x

  • No honestly i agree with you! And the next GP appointment i have i will mention this to them. But my bigger worry is having a bad illness and the doctors not picking it up. When i had my bloods done and there was nothing wrong thats fair enough but im convinced i have developed something in the matter of like 4 weeks. I completely agree with you i honestly do but a lot of these symptoms are quite scary especially when i am just 19 and healthy.

    I am going to speak to someone, but first i just want to rile the illnesses out.

    I dont want to offend anyone by writing on this website as of course i dont have a diagnosis but i thought i may get help from the people who have the same symptoms or something as i find this page to be very helpful and a safe space for all of us. Thank you x

  • But then you're running the risk of finding someone who has cancer, that has/had a shared symptom as yourself. Then what is that going to do to your mental state? Seeking out cancer sites/forums isn't going to make things better, it's going to make an already severe anxiety worse. Because believe me, you will eventually get the answer you're seeking, but not wanting to read/hear.

    Looking in from the outside, your main fear is having a life limiting disease, that will affect your ability to life a normal life. But you're already limiting your life and impacting on your ability to live a normal life by seeking out the worse case scenario each time. You're talking yourself into being unwell.

    You need to seek out mental health forums, not cancer forums if you ultimately accept this is what is wrong with you.

  • It really upsets me to see young people on a cancer chat forum thinking they may have cancer despite all tests proving otherwise, it's like a black wish that you want to come true because then you can say, see I told you so.  You've contradicted yourself in your post because you admit you're healthy, please accept that because when you've lived with or looked after someone who really has cancer trust me it's not nice.  ProfBaw is right, by being on here you're looking for similar symptoms or others who will have health anxiety and will encourage your health anxiety, I've seen it for many years as my husband had cancer so I've been on here since 2018,  there will be many now who will see your post and sympathise with you.  Please get counselling for your problems and stop googling any minor symptoms you feel you have.  Our bodies grow and alter all the time, sitting around gives you aches and pains, doing too much exercise gives you aches and pains, live a happy healthy life and stop worrying because the worst will probably never happen.  Best wishes, Carol