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So, so, anxious waiting for endoscopy results

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Hi, 

I'm waiting for biopsy results for a submucosal lesion found on an endoscopy last week. 

I'm 100% convinced they are going to come back to tell me its cancer. The endoscopist said he didn't think it looked like a cancer and it was probably benign and they didn't find anything on a ct (just stomach inflammation)

I'm just so, so scared. I spoke to my gp yesterday (well, a locum) about the anxiety and whether I should maybe jump back on to my anxiety meds which I came off last year and he was like "this is a normal reaction don't worry" but it's taking up every minute in my head. 

Everyone keeps saying that gastric cancer is rare in my age range (37 - today), it's a small thing and it could still be an ulcer or lipoma. Apparently most lesions are benign but I don't find comfort in any of this. Plus the gp I spoke to yesterday said a ct wouldn't have found anything anyway.

I'm going to die. 

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    Sorry to hear you are having such a tough time. I agree with everybody who said it's normal to fear the worst and be preoccupied by it. I mean, I'm not a mental health professional but I had a scare last summer (thankfully turned out to be nothing) and I was pretty overwhelmed by it. I don't have a history of anxiety and in fact, I'm noted for being pretty calm about things, but the possibility of cancer, no matter how slim that is, is a big deal and it's hard not to think, "but what if I'm that one in a hundred where it turns out to be cancer against all the odds. They must be checking fo something, so there could be a chance." 

    I also think when you have been on edge for a while, it's normal to doubt "is it really OK now? Could something have been missed?"

    Hope you get the results soon and they turn out to be reassuring.

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    Sorry to hear you are having such a tough time. I agree with everybody who said it's normal to fear the worst and be preoccupied by it. I mean, I'm not a mental health professional but I had a scare last summer (thankfully turned out to be nothing) and I was pretty overwhelmed by it. I don't have a history of anxiety and in fact, I'm noted for being pretty calm about things, but the possibility of cancer, no matter how slim that is, is a big deal and it's hard not to think, "but what if I'm that one in a hundred where it turns out to be cancer against all the odds. They must be checking fo something, so there could be a chance." 

    I also think when you have been on edge for a while, it's normal to doubt "is it really OK now? Could something have been missed?"

    Hope you get the results soon and they turn out to be reassuring.

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